sort of looking forward to week 6 :D

mon: Vesak Day (PH)
tues: School
wed: School + clubbing @ zouk
thurs: E-Learning Day
fri: School


2 off days from school. thurs E-Learning Day only apply to Year 1 & 3 from Nursing :D the other sch also have luh. haha. HAPPY :D


anyway, the not-so-fun part will be rushing project which will be due on week 7. & week 6 also have lots of submission to do :((


alright, going out, BYE :D


things seems simple, but its complicated
not just few words can solve everything

i knew that i will cfm overslept this morning, & i really did =.= cabbed down to ev, wasted my $$ can. routine trg, lunch-ed at coffee shop & home sweet home next :D


weather is like damn freaking hot todae can. how i hope it rains & then it will be cooler...


long weekend ahead, thanks to the public holiday on monday (:
time for projects + sleeping + shopping :D


am still thinking whether shld i go out later on at night. shld be going for drinking session again =.= consecutive 2 days of drinking lar =.= nvm, i'll take a nap first & if i manage to wake up later, then i'll go out (: lazy to walk out of the house already lar..


i know, you still cant get over it
wadever is said in the past, does it = nothing?
take a stand, tell me what you want

right. just a quick post (:


wed: MED - SURG presentation was a sucess. erm, to a extent not really but it was commented WELL DONE :D hard work paid off. HAPPY LIKE MAD :D

thurs: sch + project meeting , which was way boring. was damn tired that i skipped morning lectures & went school @ 1pm (:

Fri: happily skipped morning lectures again due to tiredness (: went school @ 12pm. head over to ORCHARD for some retail therapy :D Great Singapore Sales is coming. 23rd MAY :D went drinking just now & cabbed home. reached home @ 1am.


anyway, my mind is not thinking properly now, feeling damn sleepy. & just now i kept on drinking just to test my own limits =.= wadever, gonna wake up soon for sj trg later, so BYE :D


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just so you know,
not even once it was out of my mind

like so =.= weather nowadays are so darn hot can.

photos taken on YEAR 3 SEM 1 (:

my lovely class :D

our class makes it a point to take class photo every sem(:

the stupid presentation is tiring me out okays. stayed till like 8pm plus in school just for tmr's presentation. & those stuffs are still so messy till i arranged it nicely just now. my grp ppl just love last minutes thingy. thats when they will get panicked =.= like wtf can. please keep ur mouth shut if u din contribute anything.

im turning into a panda soon. im still staring at my laptop @ ... 0438 hrs when later on im supposed to wake up at 0530hrs =.= maybe i shld just continue to stay awake, till its time for me to go bathe & get ready for school =.=

but im feeling real sleepy can...

Medical-Surgical Presentation today.

GoodLuck to ME :D

让我们重来好不好,再一次温暖的拥抱

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY :D


HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY WEIJIE (:


gonna go out for Mother's Day Dinner later :D


pictures of you, pictures of me
remind us all of what we used to be

Firstly, i PASSED my Clinical Skills Assessment ytd :D

Secondly, im done with the Presentation ytd too !!:D

super nervous during the skills assessement (OT - Hand Rubbing). the lecturer was so darn fierce & strict. heard from others that she's the nursing manager for SHS? no wonder she's so fierce to me :(( but the main point is, i PASSED :D

presentation was a total screw-up shit. both grps that presented ytd was being arrowed by the lecturer till we have no words to say :(( & im darn fucking pissed off cos of that. instead of helping ur grp members when being arrowed by lecturer, you went to bootlick the lecturer. F* LOR, you want to pull down everyone's marks tgt with you. you din even contribute a single shit to the project, so please, shut ur mouth.

ANYWAY, im so so happy that week 4 is OVER :D this entire week has been freaking hectic, biological clock went topsy turvy.

In just a week, i have already completed ::

> Clinical Skills Assessment 1

> Clinical SKills Theory

> Clinical Skills Re-attempt

> Clinical Skills Assessment 2

> HS 3033 Presentation

we are SUPERWOMAN / MAN :D

alright ! photos on NAPHA DAY (:

macham like wanna fight =.=

I LOVE MY CLASS, THE MOST ENTHU CLASS :D

你那么爱她 为什么不把她留下

im damn freaking sleepy + cranky.

slept at like 4.30am this morning, rise & shine @ 6.30am. 2 hrs of pathetic sleep luh. dragged myself to school. was struggling super hard to stay awake. ended up, skipping the 9am lecture & went for MAC breakfast instead (: & the blur me actually brought the wrong lecture notes to school, so slept during the 2nd lecture. the feeling of sleeping is just simply so shiok :D

& YAY, i passed my 2nd attempt for Gowning&Gloving :D


Napha test todae was super tiring okays. everything started only at 4 plus i think. 5 stations + 2.4km (6 rounds arnd the stadium). our class was "high" during napha test, & the lecturer from Sports&Wellness was like ''wah, seldom see ppl so enthu for napha''. thats my lovely class :D


standing broad jump pulled all my marks down :((( & the 2.4km run was so =.= weather was super hot + lack of sleep + stomach cramps + headache makes the run so so tiring luh :(( bathed & we took a super long time to walk from sch to the YCK control station. our legs are kinda like jelly already =.= pictures up tmr. im damn tired already.


Clinical Skills Assessment & Presentation tmr.
GoodLuck to ME :D


bcos tonight will be a night that i will fall for you, over again

oh yes, finally im done with the clinical theory exam todae (: sch ended at 12pm, paper starts at 5.30pm. so 5 hrs was spent in the library studying & sleeping. LOL. paper is okay :D

but still its not over yet. there are still so many things left to complete for this week . like so =.=


oh ya, NAPHA test which is complusory for ALL YEAR 3 is tmr. totally no training for that. zzzZZ. im aiming a sliver for it :D


just reach home, feeling sleepy yet i still have the ppt slides to finish up. FRI is the presentation & they are not helping at all :((

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no one understands.... no one...

FUCK LA!!! i actually FLUNK my gowning & gloving skills assessment. like WTF lor. & not only me, almost like half of my class flunk it. first time in our 3 years we did SO DAMN BADLY. come on la, only a small mistake like this dun actually need you to fail me/others lor
:(((((((((((((((

why did you prompt some but din for others? even those from other groups commented that she is darn fierce & strict, that they got darn nervous when they saw the way she assess, even though they are being assessed by another lecturer.


nb. so now got to go for 2nd attempt. the entire class was just @%&^^#&%@ about her lar !!


& this got us damn stressed up already. wed clinical theory exam, not even halfway through studying for it. fri got presentation, also not done yet. & another clinical skills assessment is on fri too. ( eye dressing / scrubbing / CLC ) + my 2nd attempt for the gowning & gloving :((( & oh ya, the report for the FYP also not done yet =/


guess tonight i dun need to sleep. just to chiong finish everything.


life is made up of decisions that we made

with all the projects DEADLINES & EXAMS date getting nearer,
time spent in school is getting longer & longer.
& its getting boring each day =/

school library became my second home
time spent hanging out getting lesser & lesser :((

when im home,
i can spend up to 12hrs with my laptop,
joining the bits&pieces of info tgt onto the ppt slides
which is so damn fustrating

how boring can it gets?


UpComing Week

mon: nursing project journal article write-up due-d
tues: extra clinical pratice till 8pm
wed: clinical theory exam & meeting
thurs: Napha Test
fri: HS 3033 Presentation. & clubbing *winks* :D

& so friday night became a night to have FUN (: thats like the only day to have FUN cos the next day is a saturday :D im looking forward to next fri :D


but for now,
i have NO MOTIVATION to continue on,
NONE. ZERO.


你对我说我们只是擦肩而过

nb. i kept procrastinating things that i HAD to do. like presentation slides, like project research, like studying for the theory exams. till im so pek chek with myself already !! RAWR!!!!

but its tiring okays. nevermind. they dun understand anyway. if they do, they will initiate things first instead of ALWAYS me being the one to start. & complaining here is useless, as if it will help things become better =/


& yes, i agree that stress to a certain extent can helps you work better. but then stress x10000000 isnt going to make working better,instead x1000000 worse. not that i cant take stress, but if you have to do every little single thing youself, its damn F* tiring okays.


today's sunday. tomorrow is another start of a week. a start of a tiring week. where sleeping hours starts from 3/4am to 6.30am LIKE AGAIN. & the cycle goes on.... why are weekends so so short? it just comes & goes in a blink of eyes. SIGH.


its only the 3rd week. there's 16 more weeks to go.


when you say nothing at all

im very very tired. seriously.
where has all my passion for nursing gone to??


regret? not really. maybe its the process.
maybe i just need time to find back my passion.


i think...

so sad uh. no shorts, slippers for this entire semester. just cos its inappropriate to some lecturers = lots of nagging. WADEVER LAR. STUPID RULE. i dun care (:

school ended real early on wed. i LOVE wed (: haha. but next week on shld be chionging projects in school already. no time to go shopping lar :(((((((


raffles city - marina square - suntec city - bugis - macpherson / Paya Lebar


shopped :D & dined at this nepalese restaurant at macpherson that my friend worked at for dinner. the food is delicious , though abit salty cos thats how they cook their food.


the amount of food that i eat in 1 day is just so =_=
1. two chicken pau
2. one packet of chips
3. four donuts from Donut Factory
4. 1/2 packet of mashed potatoes
5. 3 cheesy sausages
6. one plate of honey grilled chicken rice
7. one glass of banana yougurt
8. 1 plate of fried noodles
9. 4 dumplings
10. 1/2 plate of fried rice

& mostly are junk food. unhealthy lifestyle LOR.


i OFFICIALLY DECLARE that im now broke already :((((((( actually spent 100 + bucks within a few days. must be food & shopping LAR. sigh. MUST CONTROL. not gonna bring atm card out already. AHHH!!!! these days keep spending $$ like as if $$ drops from sky. sigh. CONTROL.


consecutive days of sleeping at 3/4am & waking up at 6.30am is a torture. I NEED BEAUTY SLEEP. time check: 0324hrs.


you left without a proper reason

hahaha, the previous post is so not true =P
managed to fool alot of ppl =P


learnt plastering & crutches in clinical lab.

its so not easy to use crutches to walk luh. must have sense of balancing. & using that to walk is quite tiring also. now i know how my patient feel when they used that =/

we learnt plastering too. how to make a cast for the injured part. quite fun !! its practically like some sort of art & craft lesson luh. haha =P & they did a cast for me (: walked arnd in school with my cast on. & we all attracted attention =/

anyway, when i went back to cut away the cast in the late afternoon...

lecturer: *smiles* you are supposed to keep this thing on for at least a day so you'll know how the patient feel.

me: nah, i already know how it feels like. fractured my right arm when i was like 4/5 years old & had the cast on for like 3 weeks

lecturer: ohhhh........ =/

the very messy & dirty trolley


soaking the plaster to wet it & so that it'll be easier to mould...


& some plaster-ed the middle finger (:


we are happy that we got cast on =/


life is lived forward, but understood backwards

sad to say, i injured my hand :(((

Yesterday

went down to eastview straight after school. & on the way, the train jammed again, wait for like 15 mins before it started moving. encounter this situation like 2 times in a week already =.=

viewed the Speech Day Parade. then went up to the hall. took the ''friends of the school (SJAB)" award. stayed for awhile then home sweet home (:

------------

first week of school had ended. & it was more or less a waking up call for us? Year 3 is gonna be tough journey for us man. starting this coming week, there'll be 2 tutorial presentations each week. week 3 onwards will be full blast chionging exams & presentations. OMG. in less than 2 weeks time, i got to mug for exams already :((

i wonder, how to be able to complete the projects on time, & i dislike my subgroup members okays. they are just so @$^@*&^$#@

& we got to start thinking what to do for Final Year Project (FYP) already. week 17 is the deadline, not very far though :((


i guess my sleeping hours will change from next week onwards. it'll be back to those 4am /5am sleeping hrs :((((((((((((


let me go through the final semester in school peacefully


when nothing you do can change my mind

todae's clinical lab lesson is damn FUCKED-UP can. an ophthalmoscope (an instrument used to check the eye) & pen torch BOTH went missing during our lesson. after lesson ended, half of the class already went out but we were called back again. cos the lecturer found that 2 items are missing from the tray.

search the entire lab but still cant find it. so now its either someone stole it or the instrument wasnt there in the first place. but our lecturer insisted that it was there when she pushed it in. so meaning to say that some idiot stole it.

& if that idiot dont want to return it back, we got to pay a total of few hundreds bucks for that equipment. our class size is pretty small, so equals to 1 person paying $20 - $30 just cos some idiot wants that thing to him/herself.

you think small money izzit? $20 - $30 is alot of money okays. & paying for something that the idiot so selfish-ly took it is SO DAMN RIDICULOUS LOR !!!

so pissed off now.


& the damn F* headache is making everything worse.
i feel like crying you know :((((

not a very good day :((

was feeling so damn sick last night so i went to bed early. as early as like 9am?


had lectures at LTJ-2. & i din noe that such lecture theatre with cushion seats actually exists in SHS. omg, like only realised it when im in YEAR 3. cos today's the first time i stepped into it =.=


this type of seat only makes sleeping during lectures more comfortabe :D


OKAYS.
cough + sore throat + back pain = damn terrible feeling + pain


& it became really unbearable when im on the train to school. was on the verge of crying already la. damn it lor. only can slowly massage that area to ease the pain :((((

i shall rest early today. SIGH. i have no mood to continue already...


i think thats the end of it. no point going on this way. though seems to be my fault but aint urs too? im no longer holding it already. back to the start, maybe its better that way.


this is not what i intended

back to school (:


was super sleepy due to waking up damn early in the morning. as usual, slept during the long train ride =/


but the feeling of seeing all ur friends is sooo great :D HAHA. start the day with clinical lab. this time round got a strict but fun lecturer (: 1 min late for the class = playing $1 to the class fund :( & we were all stunned. cos week 3 will be our skill assessment & week 4 theory exam. what the.... so duper fast can? AHHH!!! i dun like :(


lectures was OKAY la. gonna study about management, leadership, POWER & stuff like that. paid attention only for awhile cos was very sleepy. so i played PSP to entertain myself (:

but i did take notes OKAY (:


after school went to Bishan J8 Coffee Bean to chill out :D


white chocolate dream ice blended + muffin is LOVED (:


on the way home, had to alight @ Orchard due to some technical faults with the train. & waited for 2 trains before boarding. was so crowded can. city hall was worse. waited for 3 trains before boarding =.= waste MY TIME.


the back pain is getting worse i supposed. its hurting for the entire day la. & the stupid cough is not getting better too :((( i'm so SAD la.


you actually make me think twice.

last day of holidays before sch starts tmr =/


intended to sleep till late afternoon de, but mama dragged me out of bed arnd 2 plus for dunnoe wad reason also. AHH !! i want more sleep can?


im having back pain again. have to sit straight & cant really bend if not it'll be damn painful :( & apparently, there's some stupid virus down at my throat that makes me keep coughing :( ARGHH!


i haven pack for tmr. 8am lesson is such a turn - off.


AHHHHH!!!!!!! its really very very painful :((


was it even obvious?
while i recall all the words you spoke to me...

overslept this morning. only went to sleep at 4am ++ somemore the bus is like late can. made me spent so much time waiting @ the bus stop =.=

ran 2.4km. damn. i really need to go jog more often cos there's like NAPHA for YEAR 3 students & we are REQUIRED to pass. 2 years of not taking PE & my standard drop like shit.


had a quick lunch over @ the coffeeshop & back home to bathe, changed & out to Orchard (:


walked arnd Far East. from basement to 3rd level & all the way back to basement again. din find wad i was looking for & decided to go bugis instead (: before that had dinner @ Food Republic @ Wisma =D ohh, the place there is packed with ppl but the food is delicious =)

shopped @ bugis village. bought quite a few stuffs. the way i keep spending $$, heart pain can :(


damn. im gonna be so so broke this month. & its only like the 2nd week of the month !*#*&#^!* not gonna go shopping anymore till Great Singapore Sales (: save $$ first.


im damn damn tired already. lack of sleep. & for dunnoe wad reason i keep coughing also. my muscles are all aching too. & i dunnoe where the hell the headache came from :(


those lil things makes my day (:

went back to NYP to buy books. SHS & SBM were having orientation for the Year 1. that explains why the atmosphere in the school is so high (:


thinking back, it was like 2 years ago, when we just entered nursing course & now, WOW !! we're like graduating in less than a year's time. how time flies yeah.

these 7 thick stacks of lecture notes will accompany me through SEM 1 =/ how exciting yeah.

bump into 1 of our lecturer in sch, & he told us that actually the 7 modules that we are studying is supposed to be spread over SEM 1 & 2. but then the module coordinators all decided to push all syllabus to SEM 1. so that SEM 2 will solely be on attachments.

even the lecturers themselves said that all the modules are way too much for us to cope. the lecturers all got to rush through all the syllabus in order to finish everything by SEM 1. i guess the coordinators think we are superman/woman yeah.


& i saw the booklist for the YEAR 2. they actually got 10 books to buy *faints* thankfully im over that stage already.

left school & we head over to Wheelock for Sakae Sushi Buffet (:


PSP-ed & chit chat there. we are way too full to walk la =/


actually intended to go clubbing todae. but then friend's bf not free to go, so maybe postponed to next wed. heh heh, its ladies night (:


i tried, din i?
没人能了解我现在的心情

its unpredictable

like oh-so-great. Year 3 sem 1 timetable is out already.


monday : 8am to 5pm
tuesday : 10am to 5pm
wednesday : 8am to 2pm
thursday : 8am to 6pm
friday : 9am to 4pm


damn. 3 days of 8am lesson. Of all days, why must they start class @ freaking 8am on a MONDAY?? & its a lab lesson, meaning must be punctual =.=

out of 5 days, 4 days having clinical lab lessons. wad a turnoff.


blah blah blah. they dunnoe how to plan timetable. such a long long day & they only put 1 hr of break? like wtf can.


i wonder how my body will be able to tune back to waking up so damn early for school.

back to where it is

impromptu meetup, 4pm at Marina Square =D


PIZZAHUT dinner was fantastic. had 5 slices of pizza, 2 spicy drumlets, 1 soup-of-the-day & 7-up drink. not filling for me though.


SHOPPING was nice too. but it burned a hole in my wallet :(


STARBUCKS is loved (: lots of chocolate added in the drinks makes it so sweet =D


did this ''mickey & minnie'' 3D puzzle. not easy to do can. had a headache after finishing the entire thing.


home sweet home @ 10.30pm.


right where it started

left with this week of holidays, & school will start NEXT WEEK.


having been saying this for umpteen times already. but im so so not ready for year 3. have to study syllabus meant for 1 year in 6 months time. oh-so-great right? nvm then, i shall harder for year 3.


Plans for this week: sentosa, clubbing (pending), shopping, movie-ing, kbox-ing =)


oh, i still haven paid my bills yet. RARR!! no income yet expediture is so high =_=


a better ans from you?

Don’t just find someone you can live with.

Find someone you can’t live without

HAPPY 86TH BDAE GRANDMA (:


gahh, i actually slept from ytd night 9pm till today's 2pm (: fabulous. 17 hours of beauty sleep =D cos ytd was seriously damn tiring okay.

woke up, din ate my lunch, prepared & went to grandma's house. slacked & chit-chatted there. my uncles & cousins are so interested in my future. kept asking will i be a nurse after i graduated. damn, i shld ask myself that qns, cos even i myself dunnoe the ans.


& i ate 4 rounds of buffet dinner. once again it's my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner. & i find 4 rounds still not filling enough for me. but my mama stopped me from eating already :( damn sad la can.


then it's singing & cake-cutting session (: & the pics are with my cousins. home sweet home next.


no idea why im still so tired after sleeping for 17hrs, so i shall go sleep again (:


i was hoping that ur ans
could be a lil better this time round,
guess im still wrong

W-A-D-E-V-E-R

the entire day is like so =.=


i nearly died taking CPR for almost 8 HRS. i cant believe i actually took ppl for CPR for that LONG HOURS. saying & repeating the same-old-stuffs. if you want, i can even say the CPR procedure BACKWARDS for you.


on a happier note, i saw kristin darling & meizhu @ HQ too =D ohh, SO SO HAPPIE to see them (:


cant imagine i din eat anything, with only sips of water in btw, from 7am till 6pm, where i had my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner @ opp EV coffeeshop. gosh, the journey back from HQ to coffeeshop is seriously damn tiring.


& i got a stupid backache now. thanks to the damn LONG HOURS of sitting on the floor. RARR!!


headache + backache = DAMN MOODY


anyway, damn sleepy also. i shall go sleep till tmr's afternoon.


i actually want things to be a lil better,
blah, wad am i thinking?

i dunnoe how to say it out to you.

damn. its so unfair. sis got a brand new MACBOOK PRO from dad. tsk~

oh wadever. im used to it.

HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY (:


alright. quite a few called me in the middle of the night, say arnd 3 plus 4am? HAHA. obviously im not that dumb to wake up and ans (:

& i managed to prank call ppl also. the best part was the using the IMH number. work there before so i know the number. wahhahaa *evil smile*


went out with zhu todae to sing sang sung =D all the way from 2pm to 7pm (: great isnt it? 5 hrs of singing. & the place is freaking cold can.


sheesh. i still wanna watch movie lar...

someday wound will turn into memory

well, first thing first, I WANNA WATCH STEP UP 2 !!!!!!!


okays, the best things bout holidays ::
^^ sleeping @ late hrs & waking up @ wadever time u like (:
^^ no worries bout projects, presentations & stuff like that (:
^^ no need to STUDY !! (:
^^ going out till wee hrs everyday is not a problem (:


gosh, my friends are still in vietnam. RARRR. but they are gonna be back on this friday =D


left with this & next week of holidays. then school gonna start & we'll be in YEAR 3. man.. im so not prepared for YEAR 3.

with all the FYP & PRCP & EXAMS & MORE PROJECTS & TIGHT SCHEDULES, it really will kill us man.. RARR!!!!


school aside, ENJOY FIRST =D

回忆过去 痛苦的相思忘不了

为何你还来 搏动我心跳

Counting Day.

overslept a lil but i wasnt the latest. haha. OPPS !! head down to NHQ. the hall was already filled with lots of ppl. waited for the tins to be send up the hall & started our counting. & after all the counting & waiting, left NHQ @ 2 plus.


lunch-ed @ army market there. despite eating $4 worth of prawn noodles, 2 tang yuan, cheese fries, im still damn hungry. =_= thats why i just ate like 2 bowls of rice, chicken & duck & prawns & 2 bowls of soup for dinner @ home. but still, im very hungry. =_= makes no sense lor.


gahh. my hands smells of money. =_= im broke now. only left with few cents with me. still haven got allowance for next mth. plus this month i overspent alot also.


feeling very warm despite the fan blowing @ me. something must be wrong can.


feeling very SLEEPY yet at the same time wanna play mahjong. LOL.


seriously, you shld go read -- blog,
then you'll know the whole story.
no point me being the bad person over here.

SCARS makes us stronger

SJAB Flag Day.

sheesh. that Kenneth Chia Jin Long is late in the morning. made us have to cabbed down to school in a rush. & of cos we were late, but not the latest =.=


was stationed at tamp 201. the crowd was not bad in morning but there were other corps there too. & damn, it was freaking sunny todae, was under the sun for so long, confirm sunburn. my face is feeling kinda hot now. =.= lunch-ed , then continue to do awhile more & then bus-ed back to EV.


settled everything & finally, im done with the 5 years service medal thingy. LIKE FINALLY !!!


had first aid revison with the cadets to prepare for next week BFA re-exam. slacked @ coffeeshop & back home @ 6.45pm.


damn. my muscles are kinda strained now. & im VERY SLEEPY right now.


ignoring you doesnt makes me feel better
but i just dun feel like talking to you, looking @ you.
it'll be just like in the past
a temporary period for me to get over it
& we'll see how things goes from there.

还记得吗?

went down to EV for some admin stuffs. & saw the rehearsal for the Speech Day Parade =_= dinner-ed @ S11 & home sweet home.


SJ Flag Day tmr. gotta reach school by 0630. lets hope i wun overslept. HAH.


爱不到我最想要爱的人
他心里每一寸都属于另一个人
我爱的人已有了爱人
从他的眼神说明了我不可能
its all over.
BYE.
ignoring you seems to be the best way.

just leave me alone

2 years ago, when it started
i guess..

im trying to escape from it,
& well, things turned out pretty fine after that.

got busy & well.. it moved on..

things been going rather smooth till recently,
when i so stupidly go ask that qns,
& so insisted on knowing the ans

& by knowing the ans,
dun really do me any good,
instead it makes its worse


i really dunnoe wad to do now.
having a memory loss seems to be a good idea.

ytd evening went to meet pt & jianwen to go IKEA shopping !! LOL. went around to look for frames & decided on the colour ; Sliver (: back home @ 11.15pm.


dunnoe why these days i keep getting headaches. damn lo. cant be cos of lack of sleep. HAHA. & im not gonna touch panadols. the last time i took was in comp camp & cos the pain was unbearable already.


alright, im going out to meet yq & siauling (:


it all started again when i asked the qns.
i shldnt have asked.
then i woundnt have known.
its turning out to be complicating...

time has a habit of slipping away

You know you're a NURSE if...


1. Discussing bodily fluids over a gourmet meal seems perfectly normal to you.
2. Your bladder can expand to accommodate 30L of fluid.
3. Your sense of humour gets more warped each year.
4. You have seen more penises than a prostitute. [HAH]
5. You find yourself checking out the veins of customers whilst waiting in queues.
6. You can identify a problem by the odour of body fluids.
7. Your finger has gone places most people would think impossible.
8. You live by the motto: To be right is only half the battle, to convince the doctor is more difficult. [ i totally agree ]
9. You believe that unspeakable evils will befall you if the following words are uttered: "It's unusually quiet around here today". [ it's always very true ]
10. You believe that caffeine should be available in IV form. [ it'll helps when you're on morning/night shift ]

Distant Memories

GREAT day out to Orchard (:

caught The Spiderwick Chronicles @ Cine, 1.30pm

quite a nice show. storyline is also not too bad (:

then caught The Leap Years @ Cine, 5pm.

wanted to watch this show for quite some time le, but din have time to watch it. & i finally watched it todae (: very touching, how 2 people can actually wait for each other for so long...

gotta be budget so lunched & dinnered @ KFC & LJS =)

& it was raining quite heavily @ Orchard. thus we were stuck in Cineleisure for quite some time.

walked over to Far East. & got drenched a little due to the quite-heavy drizzle. LOL.


home sweet home @ 10pm. which is like quite early, but all the shopping centres have started to close shop already. SIAN.

- its not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves -

damn. out of sudden this sickening headache pop out of nowhere.

caused me to be damn moody.

maybe i shld continue to sleep longer...

time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.
Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.
Most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.
They somehow already know what you truly want to become.
Everything else is secondary.

Extracted from http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPL_NjBjUWE


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my left eye is so itchy & painful & red now. please dun let it be an eye infection. i'm so afraid of swollen eyes already.


往事从提是折磨

freaking tired man. hp alarm din manage to wake me up @ 6.30am. end up no morning call also. & i woke up @ 7am.

actually intended to sort out stuffs for CMC meeting, thats why i wanna wake up @ 6.30am. but then waking up @ 7am left me with not much time to do my stuffs also.

ended up i cabbed to school cos i noe i'll be late if i continue to wait for bus =.= cos the bus is so damn slow, waited for like 15 mins & no bus in sight.


cmc meeting started @ 9am & ended arnd 12.45pm. lunched @ coffeeshop & home sweet home @ arnd 3.30pm.


maybe i shld go & sleep now. like finally im @ home at this hour, shld take the time to go & replenish my precious SLEEP. din manage to get much sleep for the entire week can.


what's broken cannot be mend.
what's done cannot be undone.
what's lost cannot be replaced.
it's always too late when we realize that.

这已经说明了一切

alright. was out with yq they all from afternoon all the way till midnight. LOL. went tamp starbucks first & then head off to Marina Square.

wanted to catch a movie but the queue was damn long so changed to dinner at Yuki Yaki. damn. the food there is like so little & not very nice can.


then went off to Miss U cafe for drinking. then to bark's cafe. then to changi village for supper with jianwen they all. shagged out. was back home at 0030hrs.


& now im staring at this screen with a damn freaking painful headache.


what to do...

exact posting time : 0300hrs.

我爱的人不是我的爱人

seems like almost everyday im out till very late =.=

wednesday, 19th March

went to 201 Mac to discuss some stuffs with yq. then left to white sands to meet friends. & then went to have supper at bedok 85 with yq they all. back home @ 1 plus.

today

was quite busy the entire day. LOL. woke up at 12 plus. went to bank. back home & went out to buy things for my mama. then went back home again & then out to bugis. =_=

finally i changed my phone !!! wahaha. that N73 is serious lagged. can lag for 5 to 6 mins when sending msg. then phone will auto on / off by itself, even in the middle of a call or sms.

my new phone (:

& ya, i changed my number too (:

wahaha. so happie can. LOL. just reached back home like at 2.45am. LOL. & the time now is like 4.50am. shall go sleep now. freaking tired can. & i got to wake up like at 12.45pm in the afternoon =_= so early.

once again, things became complicated,

maybe i shldnt know too much.

exact posting time : 4.59am.

Do you feel the same

like oh-so-great, that i devoted my entire afternoon to type out the meeting minutes for the Corps OIC meeting. & finally, its done within a day.


just now went out to have supper with yq, pt & william. first to tamp 201 then to bedok. & back home @ 2.35am.


it seems like i have been going out for supper for consecutive days. & i realise, i have been seeing the same people for like almost everyday since the night we go kbox.


alright, im off to bed.


exact posting time : 0335hrs.

its too contradicting

woke up @ 12 plus todae. was totally shagged out for the past weeks.


zone meeting @ NHQ. minutes was taken by me, like so =.= everything ended arnd 10.40pm.


then went down to Tamp interchange Mac for supper with yq, daryl, bh, william, jianwen. slacked there till like 2.30am then home sweet home.


im damn tired already. BYE.


exact posting time : 0315hrs.

words can be a very strong weapon

had FA/HN Competition which was held @ DHS.


the first morning call din manage to wake me up. but the second call did. & i rushed like mad, ironing my uniform, searching for the assessories & packing my bag. & luckily, i managed to reach eastview on time (:

but had a very bad headache. must be cos of the drinking ytd.


went down to DHS. then some cork ups. but was solved. the entire day was spent walking arnd, chopping certs & blah...


well, results were out. & well, can see lots of efforts are put in by them but.. congrats to all.


reached back eastview arnd 8.35pm. some talks, changed down & sat @ the coffee shop. reached home arnd 12 plus.

was totally shagged already.

exact posting time : 0200hrs.

things happen for a reason

damn freaking tired can.

back home @ 2.30am after supper last night.


went down to eastview for preparation for comp. had uniform inspection, ironing of uniform, polishing of boots & blah...

lunch & slacked @ the coffee shop till 5pm. rushed home, prepared & went out to orchard to meet friends for belated birthday celebration. dinner-ed @ the orchard kopitiam then went to party world to sing. sing sang sung till 12.30am.

it was freaking cold inside can. they ordered martell. & of cos not to spoil the mood, i drank 2 cups. of which each cup is half martell & a lil green tea only. was feeling damn shag already.


cabbed home with 2 other friends which they alight first, left me in the cab alone. LOL. the others were drunk but im not. wahahha. those who are drunk will say that they are not =.=

reached home @ 0145. & SLEEP. the following day still got to wake up EARLY can.


exact posting time : 0230am

LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENTS !!!


like finally, its ALL OVER (:

obstestric posting is definitely FUN cos of those cute babies that always make my days. feeding , bathing, burping, playing with them can really relieve stress (:


& that will end the 3 weeks of attachments.


1 month to fully enjoy myself before the start of the hectic YEAR 3. seriously, im not prepared for YEAR 3 lah. its gonna be full of projects, attachments, PRCP.


well, school aside, PLAY FIRST =D


alright, im going out for supper with pt, alvin,william,jianwen&james.

a fullstop.

this morning, i woke up feeling very blur, picked up my phone & saw 6 new messages. the first message that i clicked reads : '' your exam results are ... '' wahh, quickly scan through & i PASSED ALL MY MODULES =D


Nursing Science 2D (HS 2037) -- B
Research Methods (HS 2056) -- C
Clinical Lab 2B (HS 2057) -- B+
Biological Science 2B -- D+
Nursing Science 2A (HS 2117) -- C+
Behavioural Science 2B (HS 2119) -- C
Clinical Education -- C+


this time round only one D. & that is cos i din study for it. well, next sem, NO "D". haha. pretty satisfied with my results cos din really have much time to study for all the modules ya (:


went down for self train in the morning. was still pretty tired can. then left @ arnd 12.15pm for attachment. thankfully im being posted to the nursery again. was feeling damn sleepy throughout the entire shift & the coldness in the ward + the heavy rain din help much.


tmr is another long long day again. & its the LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT can. im so happie (:

hallucinations or illusions?

it rains everyday.
& its this very cold everyday.
just like how my mood is.


i think im better this morning during work. i reached on time. i din fell asleep. i did everything sui sui. not like the day before, like half-dead like that.

everybody was like asking " xingjuan, did u sleep last night ", " can make it anot todae '' sian-ed lo. even some staff nurses are asking. wth can.

at least todae im in the nursery. feeding the babies, changing diapers, playing with them keeps me busy & not thinking bout anything else. the entire day of of newborn babies crying & screaming away in the room makes me only concentrate on them.


the ward is damn cold can. it think the hosp got alot of money to spare, thats why they full blast the aircon 24/7.

i have enough of coldness already.
during night in camp is also damn cold.
now attachment also damn f* cold.
weather also damn cold.


thankfully i have 2 more days to go. 2 more afternoon shift & i can say BYE BYE to attachment &
HELLO to holidays.

RESULTS IS GOING TO BE OUT AT 12 MIDNIGHT *IM DAMN NERVOUS*

i keep thinking,
did those things really happen.
cant it be confirmed?

i feel like screaming & crying, can i ?

after so long, finally im back to blog. & the damn wireless modem died on me, so i have to restort to using some ahem ways to get it work (: alright, lets blog bout wad happened recently (:


last friday, 7 March was the last day of attachment @ IMH. had a mini party for the patients over there & i can see that they really enjoyed themseleves la. & some patients are just so cute in the way they speak though its not fantastic english. LOL.

then went kbox @ Cine at night. all 6 of us were crazy ppl, going kbox on the eve of comp camp. pt, yq, xj, alvin, daryl, william bill amounts to a whooping $300 ++++ thats when my $$ flew away. ended the k singing session @ 4am plus. then went here & there to get barangbarang & then back to coffee shop for breakfast & meeting.


4 days 3 nights Comp Camp started on Sat, 8th March. had the usual preparation, settling down, cases & blahh.. 2hrs of sleep on that night. & the conference room is freaking cold @ night luh.

same routine for sunday too. slept for say 2 hrs too before booking out & going for attachment @ KKH. sad to say that im late on the FIRST DAY OF ATTACHMENT luh.

then went back to camp after im back from attachment. TIRED LEH. chiong the whole day & din even sleep & sir william send me back home @ 5am plus. prepared everything & i realised that im LATE FOR ATTACHMENT AGAIN. wad an ass la.

guess todae is like the worse day in the ward. totally stoned out the whole day. nearly spilled all the meds when serving it. doing wrong things. saying the wrong things. keep banging into ppl. haiya, just lots of stuffs being DONE WRONG LA. &#*&$


then entire camp makes me so shagged plus going to attachment during camp is a torture makes everything worse.


lotsa stuffs happened during the camp.
i dunnoe wad to comment on it.
sometimes, im just speechless,
& oh well ......


somethings cant be undone.
im rather surprised.
i wanna noe the reason.
but im still love the feeling & the way it happened (:


im damn tired now. shall get my ass to bed. i dun wanna stone during tmr's morning shift. & i realised, ive got panda eyes already :(


comp camp is just 5 days away, remember,
WINNERS MAKE IT HAPPEN, LOSERS LET IT HAPPEN

rainy & cold day.


still cracking my brain over that casestudy. somehow, i just cant seems to finish it. ARGH !!!!!!


my head is spinning like crazy.
having a very bad headache.
sneezing & coughing like mad.
flu & sore throat makes everything worse.
food is tasteless to me.

im feeling terrible :(

comp training todae. well, as usual till 4 plus. had meeting after that. reached home near 7pm.


& this forgetful person forgot to take his things.


have been sneezing & coughing the entire day. which made my voice changed too. like =.=


din sleep ytd night. just so happen that always din sleep on friday night then next day got to go for training =.=

im feeling so sick :(