flag day tmr. gonna wake up early. LOL.

these days im being real forgetful. tsk tsk. **shakes head **


headache is my worst enemy.
please stay far away from me.


=((

罗志祥 >> 爱转角

我伪装著不露痕迹的 想在你身边
静静的陪著看著天边
骑著单车 往前行进著
某个路口 爱著等著 你往前走
不回头看了 记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲著我的琴键
我不舍得让你孤单单的 我爱你的
心牵挂著

心不再拼命躲 不去害怕结果
假设有个以後 你会怎麼说 一直想跟你说
幸福不再溜走 下个路口 你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以後的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以後的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作废 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

ARGH !!!!!

headache sucks.

its making me feel so sick =(((

phew, just now went to NTUC to help mummy buy 2 BIG watermelons & 2 BIG honeydew. its heavy de lor. luckily she ask me to push the trolley there, if not im not going to buy. haha =p anyway, its still HEAVY can. duh.


ytd reformat my laptop cos of the stupid adware/spyware thingy. irritating. waste so much of my time to reformat & reinstall the programs back. lost some of my documents though. =(( my laptop looks kinda empty now. LOL.

>> go looking for food =))


~~SIAN~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN SHA =DD


these days, weather is really hot. so ppl must drink more water ya =))


chocolate ice cream is yummy delicious =P


bored / sleepy / hungry / dreaming

caught these 2 movies ytd with piggie =DD


hearty paws &




mr bean's holiday


& the money was well spent =p

hearty paws is a thumbs up movie =)) storyline is very very touching and it will make you cry. definitely.

mr bean's holiday is a comedy show lar. super funny can. throughout the movie ppl keep laughing & laughing. =))

hahaha. must go watch these 2 movies =p

after the movie went to find fish. we are so good rite?? LOL. these days like keep going to vivo can. but i will still lost my way inside. hahaha.

FAC 2007. we got a CHAMPION back =))






i dun want to rot at home can.

my whole body is still aching =(((

feeling so sleepy now.

lalalaa. my 1 month holiday starts todae. =)))

later going down for zone meeting. before that going to harbour front centre to get something from evelyn. LOL.


Never Let You Go

The rain just never seems
To bring the joy
I feel the same everlasting pain
Of my loss remains
My heart can't seem to learn to part
The hold you left your mark
All that I dreamed of now
It seem so stark

Though I told myself
Won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
And you know I'd never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset
Our one last romance

Though I told myself
Won't hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

18th march was zone 8 inter corp first aid & home nursing competition. was held at greenview secondary school. reached there at arnd 9 plus lor. went up for FAC committee briefing at 11.30am. & the whole event start at arnd 1 plus ba.

got 2 postings todae. home nursing time keeper & custodian of prize. =)

was pretty tiring standing up for so long wearing the court shoes. my feets already have blisters & wearing court shoes made it worse. became so red & painful =((

after that went down for the prize presentation. & i got a shock.


our NC team got CHAMPION !!!!!!!!!!!

yes. they did themself & the school proud. & im VERY VERY VERY HAPPIE for them =))

well done girls. =DD

then went up for debriefing & we cabbed back to east view. went seoul garden to eat. hahaha. superly hungry by then. & i think i ate a lot lor. HAH !!!!


my whole body is aching can. walking seems so painful now. =((


once again,

CONGRATS TO THE NC TEAM =))

END OF ATTACHMENT !!!!!!!!! =)

3 weeks of attachment finally ended. waited so long for this day. LOL.

& our clinical instructor gave us her comments on our performance for this posting. Mine was '' conscientious & capable student. have the potential to be groomed. keep up the good work .'' =)) was so happie when i saw the comment. lalalala.

sometimes last minute works too. the case study that i rushed through the night & presented next day, was commented '' good attempt '' by the clinical instructor. & the info that i presented were all relavent. =))

this attachment was definitely better than the previous 2 posting. maybe cos we are more familarised with the hospital routine & we know more skills ba.

just now during lunch time was chatting with 1 of the patient. told her that todae was our last day in this ward. know wad? she cried. we were like omg-what-did-we-do. she said she's feeling sad that we are leaving the ward already cos she want us to take care of her. that we are more gentle & nicer than the nurses there. we were so touched lar. that patient actually cried when we are leaving.

lots of things happened during this 3 weeks of posting. injured myself countless of times. having gastrics almost everyday. blistersss on my poor feet. almost biten by the patient on the hand. patient threw things at me & hit my arm. seeing many patient leaving this world. & many more. just cant rmb now.

attachment is over. 1 month of holidays is here. =D many many plans are made =)) haha. & maybe i'll go look for job. im getting poorer with this appetite of mine & those shoppings. so must go earn more money. LOL.

& seriously my results sucks. all those ''D''s. GPA was like -.-''' . year 2 cannot have '' D ''s liao. only C & above.

FAC is on this sunday. & i got to wear court shoes. my feets are going to suffer again. im part of the working committee so got to be down early. & i can gossip with kristin darling =D 2 more days to competition.

to the 2 teams ::

JIA YOU . YOU ALL CAN DO IT =D


so tired now. & having a stupid headache makes it worse.


even i cant give an answer to myself.

alright. results are out. as i expected, its not well done.

but at least, i PASSED all modules !!!! =D

Nursing Science 1D - B+
Behaviourial Science 1A - D
Behaviourial Science 1C - D+
Biological Science - C
Clinical Lab 1B - D+
Nursing Science 1E - C
Clinical Education - D+

so many '' D '' lor. thats wad you get for not studying for exams.


ARGH !!!!!! i still haven finish my case study =(

now chionging that stupid case study. humph. have to do so many things. must do the pathophysiology & drugs actions & blah blah blah. have to present tmr lar. tonite dunnoe wad time then can sleep. =(

super hungry now. how i wish someone can cook for me to eat. im so lazy can. HAH !!

my left eye suddenly became red, swollen & pain. =((

results are going to be out at 12 midnite. LOL. so practically all my friends are staying up to wait for the results. LOL.

back to my case study.


im sleepy.
im hungry.
im tired.

2 weeks of attachment is over !!!

1 week. 1 more week & its holidays =)

ytd morning went down to greenview sec for FAC briefing & test ground. stayed around for awhile & rushed back home to prepare for going out. cabbed home.

was late meeting them at jurong east control station. cabbed to imm cos there's a lot of ppl queuing up for the bus & we are lazy to walk there. LOL. bought presents for the 2 birthday girls & then cabbed back to jurong east control station again.

went to jurong entertainment centre. wanted to go ice skating initally but decided to go kbox !!! FUN FUN singing =) sang from 2pm to 7.30pm. its freezing cold inside can. though we all are wearing jeans and jackets, we are still shivering lar.

we are so " HIGH "

yummy birthday cake =)

the 2 birthday girls. happy 18th =D

went to k pool after that & played for 2 hrs. my skills seems really lousy ytd. =(

and my IC kena checked by the staff there while we were playing lar. obviously mine was checked first then the rest also kena checked. HAHA. ths is the dunnoe-how-many-times my IC got check in k pool liao. LOL. shows that im still young =D

ate dinner at the coffee shop. the food was nice or maybe we are too hungry liao. LOL. the bill was even NICER.

walked around and headed home le.

we were chatting about lesbians & gays on the train & maybe we were talking too loudly ba. cos ppl keep looking in our direction. HAH !!

reached home, bathe & slept like a pig. =)

seems like i cabbed a lot ytd. spent so much $$$$ also.

yummy prawns that im going to have for dinner later. =p

results gonna be out either tmr or tuesday. so NERVOUS !!

& i haven started on my assignment which is due on tuesday. ARGH !!!!!!!

9th day of attachment. & im surviving. LOL.

8 days of waking up at 0515hrs in the morning, dragging myself to attachment is terrible can. so TIRED in the morning. luckily todae is afternoon shift, until next wed. then go back to morning shift again.

seriously lacking of sleep now. no wonder i keep injuring myself. 2nd time scalded my hand in the ward le. & it became swollen. =(

this attachment is very very busy for us. lots of things to do & so on. & cos of the recent back injury that i had, im experiencing terrible back pain now. having to carry patients, keep bending to do stuffs make it worse. =(

having stomach cramps during attachment is like the worse thing that can ever happen. =(

got a shock in the ward todae. LOL.

oh ya. results are coming out soon. hopefully it will be a good one.

type till here ba. too tired to continue.

i want to go Zzzzz.


maybe time is all i need.

just got news from my uncle that grandma is admitted into hospital le.

haiz... hope everything's fine.

just came back from ah ma's house. went there for lunch. nice food =)

saturday went down to hq as an invigilator for KSJ exam. hurr. hq was quite crowded ytd with all the zone ppl. & noisy as well. haha. invigilating was boring but i got to know ppl from other zones (: had to stay there till 2 plus until all the zone had taken the exam. by then, i already feel like sleeping can. LOL.

reached home at 3 plus. din even eat lunch. so hungry lar. bathe & prepare then went to marina bay control station to meet my corp de ppl for dinner :) went 镇发活海鲜 to eat. the food was simply yummylicious. ate a lot but i still dun feel full. LOL. then went superbowl for bowling sessions. FUN FUN & FUN !!! my bowling skills got improve liao. hehe. =p played 2 games there. reached home at 12 plus.

see. i got scalded by the hot soup. =(


i want to go shopping , ktv-ing, movie-ing !!! but it got to wait after attachment. =(

going out for dinner le.


i've tried & tried. but i guess it takes time.

finally get to blog le.

having attachment is really tiring lar. stand whole day & do this and that. my poor feets hurts so badly now. =(

but i feel happy when those patients say " thank you hor missy " when they left the hospital. haha. goes to show that the care we provide are up to standard. HAH !! =D

tuesday & wednesday went to a primary to assist the nurses there do health check for the students. guess which primary school i'm posted to?? SENGKANG PRIMARY SCHOOL !!!! the train ride there took me 1hr 20 mins liao lor. & im supposed to be there by 7.30am.

anyway, the way pri 1 kid walk, talk & their actions all add up to one word = CUTE :) hahah. so the day spent at the pri sch was FUN. felt so old when we were in the same room with them. we are like 10 years older then them?? thats like so OLD can. LOL.

back to the hospital on thursday & its the same usual routine. oh ya, did i mention that im posted to a female ward this time round?? first time taking care of female patients. but i still prefer male patients. female tends to be little emotional, sensitive & fussy at times. so you know wad will happen lar.

one week of attachment is over. left with 2 more weeks. & needless to say, i got assignment to do. & its even more difficult to do. got to include the bio terms and everything. ARGH!!! i hate it =(

as mentioned in my last post, i injured myself twice in 2 days of my attachment. & told you that there will be more injuries.
>> cut my finger on 1st day of attachment & needed 4 plasters to stop the bleeding
>> knocked my knee against the ward's door and got a '' blue-black ''
>> had 4 blisters on my both feets
>> scalded my hand in the ward today. [ luckily its only a small part ]

cant believe rite?? i also cant lor. poor poor me. din noe im so careless & clumsy. =(

& im lacking of sleep now. sob sob.


oh, i lost 0.5kg. good news?? bad news??


I WANT TO SLEEP & EAT LIKE A PIG.

gonna be a short one.

simply too tired from attachment le. yawns.

injured myself twice in 2 days of attachment. see how careless i am during attachment??

hurr.

shall see how many more injuries im going to get.

& it just sucks. i got fever. =(

slept at 3am this morning and woke up at 6 plus. feeling so sleepy. then went down for st john training. GAMES DAY was fun fun !! =) played captain ball and tug of war. well, not really play lar, cos im the refree. haha. but its fun !! the mood is there. =)

haha. my mind is still awake during the training. still know wad im talking and doing. if im too tired, nonsense will come of my mouth lar. LOL.



hmm. you people got to buck up le. not enough time left le. i dun wanna see the same results that i see in training todae. you all can do it. just whether you all want to put in the 101% effort anot. if you all are really determine about this, go all out and put in your 200% effort in this. & you will see the results that you all aim for.



went to coffee shop to eat. if i dun eat at that time, think i will have gastrics liao. so hungry can. haha. eat & chat. then walk to the bus stop. decided to walk to 201 with jas. on the way jas say to walk to simei then she go cgh there take bus home. LOL. then at 201 there, got accident. the car is stuck in the middle of road & there's a pool of blood on the floor. but no casualty. think sent to hospital le. & the traffic jam was like '' OMG '' , its damn long lar. stretch all the way behind. there are like 8 or 9 SBS buses stuck in the jam can. & ppl who's in taxi at that time, confirm taxi fare very high .

3rd accident that i saw in 2 weeks liao. the 1st two accident happen at my house the road there. heard the '' screeching '' sounds of the tyres & a loud ''bang'' & it happened le. haiz. must be careful when crossing road.



is A naive or innocent or wad?? cant A see that wadever B does or say is fake and playing with A feeling?? maybe like wad ppl say, love is blind. thats why wadever others say , A totally ignored it and A jollywell knows that B really did those things. wonder how in the world A will like B.



im now in the '' i feel im idiotic, dumb, stupid, pathetic, crazy, useless '' mood. dun ask me why cos i dunnoe. just feel that im really stupid & dumb to want to do those things. feeling pathetic?? hurr. no idea how to say it out. crazy?? yupps. feeling super crazy now. thinking of stuffs that i shldnt be thinking & that it will happen. hurr. & obviuosly im useless lar. dun even noe how to deal with my own emotions. perhaps being drunk seems to be a good idea.

blabbering those nonsensical things again.



chingay 07 is on tv now. but i dun feel like watching. nthing much also. every year seems the same to me. LOL.

maybe i will go sleep now. & it will be better.



wad happened is a past now. if i can walk out of the past, then xingjuan will be a happy girl.


see, im being dumb again.

ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #*&%$*&#^&$


I'M DAMN PISSED OFF NOW !!!!!!!!!



just now my sister came back from school crying. she lost her wallet. cos she went for CCA, then all their belongings were kept in the classroom. & the teacher din even LOCK the classroom. wth lar. ended up my sis & another person wallet lost. inside the wallet got ez link card, money & a 保平安 thingy which cost like few hundred bucks can. mummy was so UPSET when she heard it. few hundred bucks like that fly away. heartpain can. i see her so sad i also xin tong lar. was so PISSED OFF when i heard it. dun the teacher have the common sense to even lock up the classroom when there's like so many valuables inside?? & the school have so many incidences of ppl stealing. doesnt this increase the awareness of the teachers??? #(*#&(#^%#^%



& THAT PERSON is getting on my nerves. told THAT PERSON umpteen times & THAT PERSON still doesnt get it. blocking THAT PERSON on msn din seems to work. there's still something call SMS. #&^#*^%#^. ROAR !!! is the word N-O so hard to understand??



make me so angry. =(

YAYNESS !!!

finally exams are over. =)

but it also means the start of attachment le. =(

paper todae was rather okay. wrote crap for the SAQ section. LOL. nvm. im just happie that its finally over. can rest le.

humph. next mondae start of attachment. SIAN SIAN SIAN. just went for 3 weeks of attachment in Jan and now another 3 weeks in March. **faint** hopefully the days will pass quickly then i can enjoy my 1 month of holidays. =D

having st john trg tmr. there will be games day too. (=

alright, u can stop reading here le. its going to be boring if you read down.


haha. im really bored thats why i did this. to entertain myself. LOL. dun read if u dun want.

1. One of your scars, how did you get it?
erm. mummy cane de lor. i was naughty when im young lar.

2. What is on the walls in your room?
light, fan, board ??

3. What does your cell phone look like?
it has a screen. its NOKIA, below is 21 small buttons. oh. And a camera too.

4. What music do you listen to?
chinese. english. sentimental & oldies are nice. =)

5. Do you know what time you were born?
hmm. I forgot liao.

6. What do you want more than anything right now?
be happy. thats enough for me now.

7. Who do you miss?
I miss my grandpa.
I miss … erm….. i also not sure…. LOL

8. What is your middle name?
’’xing’’ [幸]

9. The best TV show ever created:
cartoons =)

10. The last person you talked to?
mummy.

11. Do you get scared in the dark?
when im outside, yes.

12. The last person to make you cry?
well. its that someone.

13. What is you favourite cologne/perfume?
dun have favourite lar. i think nice then okay lor.

14. What kind of hair/eye color do you like on the opposite sex?
the hair dun too beng can liao. LOL. I sui bian one lar.

15. Would you rather be smart or funny?
smart lor. if you are smart. u CAN make jokes that people will laugh WITH you. if you are dumb and funny. people will laugh AT you. LOL.

16. Coffee or energy drinks?
im fine with both. =)

17. What is your favourite pizza topping?
Cheese, ham, Pineapple . gosh, im hungry now. =p

18. If you can eat anything right now, what would it be?
anything also can. so long its food i’ll eat. =D

19. Who is the last person you made mad?
that particular someone who i BLOCK in msn.

20. Do you speak another language?
other than chinese and english huh?? some mixture of dialets lor.

21. What is the first gift someone ever gave you?
my parents. they are precious to me =)

22. Do you like someone?
erm. no. yes?? im kind of confused rite now so i dunnoe how to ans this qns. LOL.

23. Are you double-jointed?
wads that?? my eng not that good.

24. Favourite clothing brand?
the clothes nice can le.

25. What’s your dream car?
hmm. black &…

26. What color is it?
black.

27. What’s your favourite kind of exercise?
swimming, running &…

28. Would you fall in love knowing that the person is dying?
well, if one can fall in love that easily, furthermore is on someone who’s leaving, maybe that’s not called love. may be ''pity'' [ Note ‘maybe’ ]

29. What is the best way to tell someone how much they mean to you?
by all the little things you do for them everyday. Actions speak louder than words. =D

30. Say a number from one to hundred.
okay. [ "a number from one to hundred" ] -.-

31. Blondes or brunettes?
Blondes.

32. What is the one number you call often?
hmm. these days dun have often called no le. it used to be **985…..** or maybe is fish ba. LOL.

33. What annoys you most?
depends on my mood lor.

34. Have you been out of Singapore?
yupps.

35. Your weaknesses.
hmm. u all tell me lor. LOL.

36. Tater tots or fries?
fries =) potatoes are nice.

37. First job?
cashier at ntuc. haha. can earn a lot wan leh.

38. Ever prank called someone?
of cos. told u im naughty liao. haha.

39. What were you doing before you filled out this?
hmm. doing some bo liao things.

40. If you could get plastic surgery, what would it be?
i love the way i am. =)

41. Why did u fill out this survey?
cos im SUPER SUPER SUPER bored now.

42. What do you get complimented about most?
** you are so guai ** haha. no lar. kidding kidding. only my relatives will say that.

43. What would you do if alcohol becomes illegal?
nothing. Unless i want to drink.

44. What do you want for your birthday?
to spend it happily. & maybe…

45. How many kids do you want?
2 ba. 1 boy 1 ger lor. then the kor kor can look after & dote on the mei mei. which is wad i always wan.

46. Were you named after anyone?
nope. but there’s 1 singer named [ ‘ 蔡幸娟 ‘ ] . different surnames. LOL.

47. Do you wish on stars?
sometimes. & sometimes I hope it will come true.

48. Which finger(s) is your favourite?
all . cos its my finger. ^.^

49. When did you last cry?
think is on 21st feb ba.

50. Do you like your handwriting?
of cos. its my handwriting. but also must depend on mood lar.

51. What is your favourite lunch meat?
huh?? lunchmeat??

52. Any bad habits?
got a lot lar. dun want waste time to type out.

53. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
embrrassing CD?? None. =)

54. If you were someone else, would you be friends with you?
yupps. but it’ll take awhile.

55. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
nopes. I keep my promises. =D

56. Do looks matter?
maybe ba.

57. How do you release your anger?
scream. cry. listen to music. dun talk to anyone.Beat ppl?? Haha.

58. Where is your second home?
second home ar?? My ah ma hse. =)

59. Do you trust others easily?
I dun trust people that easily anymore. first impression counts.

60. What was your favourite toy as a child?
jia jia jiu. LOL.

61. How many numbers are in your cell phone?
how i noe?? i din even count lor.

62. Do you use sarcasm?
sometimes lar.

63. Do you know anyone famous?
sort of ba.

64. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
wads that??

65. What do you look for in a guy/girl?
come ask me and i’ll tell you. =D

66. What are your nicknames?
erm…xingjuan. prawn. ger. xia. ger ger. xiao mei. LOL.

67. How many pairs of shoes/slippers do you have?
more than 8 =)

68. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
lazy people like me wun.

69. Were you upset about Steve Irwin dying?
okay ba.

70. What’s your favourite ice cream flavor?
CHOCOLATE !!! ^.^

71. Are you lazy?
most of the time. but it depends on the thing that im doing and who is it for.

72. What are you favourite colors?
BLUE & PURPLE =D

73. What is your favourite brand?
dun have.

74. How many wisdom teeth do you have?
NONE. im lucky :)

75. Do you want everyone to answer these questions?
they can ans if they want.

76. What are you listening to right now?
tank de 专属天使

77. Last thing you ate?
maggie mee.

78. Last person you talked to on the phone?
uh.. fish.

79. What was the first thing you noticed on the opposite sex?
first thing huh. hmm. the way they dress ba.

80. Favorite thought provoking song:
eh. currently is 退后 .

81. Favorite thing to hate:
thing??

82. Favorite drink:
no favorite ba. I sui bian one.

83. Favorite zodiac sign
snake. cos its mine (=

84. What is your favorite sport?
thot I answered it just now??

85. What is your hair color?
brown, black.

86. Eye color?
black.

87. Do you wear glasses?
yupps. =(

88. Siblings?
yes. & I have 3 younger sis.

89. Favorite month(s)
december. cos it’s my birthday month & there’s Christmas too. =)

90. Last movie you watched.
ghostrider.

91. Favorite day of the year.
dun have any favourite day lor.

92. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Nah.

93. Summer or winter?
Winter.

94. Kisses or hugs?
depends from who =)

95. Relationships or one-night stands?
relationships only please.

96. Who is most likely to answer these questions?
how i noe.

97. Who is least likely to answer these questions?
how i noe.

98. Create your own question! Whoo!
[ whats the thing that you have done and regretted it most ]


haha. thats the end of it. told you its boring le. LOL.


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