when everything seems wrong

i think work is getting better. i think.
i took 14 cases today. all patients under my charge.
and im glad that i can managed all the workload.
just few more days till PRCP ends.
just few more days till i become a SN.
cant imagine the amount of stress that i'll be facing.


fuck. if you think im the one who said it,
then i got nothing else to say.cos i didnt even
mention anything regarding that issue to others.
for what will i want to say to make things worse for them?


i dont want to know anymore things.

i told myself not to cry,

but still i did. WHY?