this entire week is like a roller coaster ride. up and down.
i thought everything seems to be on the track but then along the way, that one sentence, or rather a word makes it all crashed down. it wasnt who i though it was anymore.
i dont know who to believe in anymore.
this week, when i heard someone mention about that incident, my heart started to beat very fast. i prayed very hard that it wasnt going to end up what i thought it might be. but yes, it was. all i know was that my eyes were watery and the next moment, i walked out very fast. i couldnt let them all see.
and everything had to happen all at the same time and pull me down.
i felt so damn guilty. my bad. im lousy. im useless. im everything negative.