not to worry

back for some updates :))
weather has been terrible for the past few weeks. super hot and humid. then comes the drastic weather change effect. hot cold humid. no wonder so many ppl are falling sick..


days in the training centre has been pretty mundane.
lectures skills lectures skills everyday. boring.
BCLS was great, got a perfect score strip :))
BCLS MCQ exam was pretty easy :)) done in 3mins.
Venipuncture Skill Assessment was alright :))
Cannulation Skill Assessment was alright too :))


oh yes, there was an In-house debate on wed.
Organ trading in Spore, shld it be legalized?
debate was well, informative and fierce.


this coming week, there's more assessments!!
all these memorizing is killing my brain cellssss :((
especially pharmacology and those policiesss.


Things change, People change. it doesnt mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesnt mean giving up, it means accepting things that are not meant to be.

clear as water

love is a riddle

work started this week.

well, to be exact, its the start of 1mth orientation.

lectures everyday, skills exam every week.

start of next week, its BCLS + MCQ exam !!

need to study study again.

still dont have the ''feel'' of being a Staff Nurse.

maybe when we start work in ward, it'll be different.

right now, we still feel like students.

saw many many familar faces in the hospital :))

trying very hard everyday to stay awake during lectures. obviously not very successful, you'll see many heads nodding at the lecturer everyday. finding entertainments to keep us awake :)) gossiping is usually the best way :))

you cant be too trustful,

sometimes you might get ur back stabbed.

life is a maze and love is a riddle.

Reassurance

ytd morning had CMC meeting.
plans later on were quite fun :))
Orchard > Plaza Sing > CS Blue Urban Oasis
Orchard was flooded with water due to the heavy rain, till ankle deep which obviously caused a big hoo-haa outside the station and the crowd is terrible horrible. walked through till Wisma and went to dry our legs.


Dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe :))
catch up on each other lifes + MORE GOSSIPS.


joined them back arnd 10.30pm at tamp.
drank beer (Asahi), watch them play RISK.
finally i sort of know how that game is played :))


nowadays, beer or alcohol dont seems to tempt me. or rather, i dont like drinking already. ytd when drinking, i thought of that again. that feeling was not good at all :((


am so screwed.
25 more days before the first pay gets bank in.
think i need to survive on GRASS & H2O :((


so today is the so-call last offical holiday.
work is starting tomorrow.
staff nurse uniform, staff nurse name-tag.

things change. people change.

its still lingering on

driving lessons has been pretty smooth going :))

just that parking techniques need to be brush up.

went for impromptu KSinging Session on tuesday.

had a great time from 8+pm till 2+am with them :))

shopping at Orchard on wednesday.

spent lots of $$ :((

head over to the newly open Tampines 1 on thursday. super duper crowded. seems like the entire tamp population is there. saw quite a few familar faces too :)) more shops more eating places :)) they should open 1 KBOX there luh.

caught the show, KNOWING at 10pm. 5 thumbs up :))

right, so its 3 more days till work start.

im still not ready for it.

how come holidays are so short?

you cant get caught up wishing for smth that wont happen.

you just gotta move on to the next best thing.

time goes by, life goes on

i just cant stand staying at home with nothing for me to do. i need to be out, out somewhere, with something for me to do. now i cant wait for work to start, at least i'll be busy with something, and to stop things from running in my mind. on the other hand, start of work equals to '' no life". which is what i dont want :((

sigh, sometimes in life, you have to give up something for another.


there is no such thing as "your fault" or "my fault" because no one can control feelings. it comes and goes as and when it likes and somehow it would creates a different impact on different people.


thinking, somehow its rather sad when people you know became people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can even barely look at them. time changes everything. from strangers to friends to lovers and back to strangers again.


on a rainy sunday afternoon, with me being very bored, ignore the nonsense above.

no matter how dark the night is,

the sun will rise again.

think it over

again, been out till wee hours almost everyday =X

have been watching lots of movies lately.

only 2 weeks, 6 movies watched!!

im broke. very broke.

been spending lots of money.

my bank looks pathetic :((

9 more days till start of work.

how how how how how how?

如果忽冷忽热的溫柔是你的借口

那我宁愿对你从沒任真过

a little too not over you

celebrated grandma's 87th bdae ytd :))

grandma :))

with cousins and relatives :))

with my family :))

with my sisters :))

lets not go through this again.

Trying

have been out for the entire week till wee hours.


headover to alvin's 21st chalet on 24th.
overnight till the next day.
ate/chit-chatted/monopoly-ed/mahjong-ed
hope you like the present ah!!! :))
happy belated 21st alvin sha :D



dbl O on the 25th night.
wasted again :((
seriously hate the hangover feeling.
eyes was damn swollen the next day.


out with poly clique on 27th.
head over to Aston for our dinner.
queued for quite some time uh.
as usual, the food over there is NICE :))


sjab training in the morning on 28th.
celebrate xueling's bdae in the evening :))
happy belated 17th chang xueling!! :))
head over to TM coffee bean to slack till 3am ++


seriously, why is everything so fucked up now?
everyone's having the same problem.
i just cant seems to get it out of my mind.
time, all i need is time.

dont try too hard to forget,

cos it will hurt even more.

YOU ARE WRONG WHEN ITS RIGHT

WELL DONE for the 4 teams :))
22nd March 09 marks an impt day for you all.
give yourself a pat on the shoulder.
can see the hard work & effort you all put in :))


21 MORE DAYS,
to the start of a new begining.
no more student nurse.
but a staff nurse instead.
with more responsibilites to handle.
how? im afraid i cant handle it well...


sigh. why no one believe me when i say,
i want to quit drinking,
i want to quit clubbing?
must be they know me too well =.=

its like my mind knows what is right & wrong,

but my heart is being retarded and still cares.

How True It Is

BIG DAY is TOMORROW.
22nd March 2009.
all the hard work that you all have put it,
dont let it go to waste.
Put in all your 101% effort and do your very best for it.
We'll be supporting you all all the way :))
AC1, NC1, AC2, NC2.


is it really so difficult?
must we really make things become so complicated?
isnt it the simpler things is, the better it is?

i told myself, i dont miss you,

i only miss the memories that we once had.

thinking back

back from comp camp, 6 days since i touched my laptop and online. the number of emails is scary, 6 days accumulated up to 242 emails. had a hard time clearing it :((

tiring 4 days 3 nights camp.

but can see effort put in by all.

some unexpected stuffs, shall not talk about it.

had supper last friday at ICE3 CAFE :)

the ice cream there is DELICIOUS :))

i dont like parking. i cant see the back when i turn around = the car parked slanted. makes me feels so pek chek plus the fact that my seat is already adjusted. strongly believe is not cos of height problem but is more of practice. RARRRR.

have been taking leave & MC from work.

partly due to SJAB & tiredness.

next week then chiong work again.

officially graduated from NYP :))

results are out already.

seems like i got the best results in YEAR 3 :))

PRCP attachment: B+

GPA increased :)) happy.

am waiting for my letter of conferment & academic transcript to be mailed to me.

lots of stuffs to say.

will there be a chance?

the feeling is not right

down with bad sore throat & flu :((
im feeling so sick right now.
camp is just 2 more days away.
i dont want go camp with the flu bug tagging along :((

now feeling a lil bit feverish.
drinking lots & lots of water,
pray very hard that i'll be okay tmr.

have the very sian feeling.
RARR. my throat hurts :((
& i keep sneezing non-stop :((


things may be better if we had been friends.

truth hurts lies worse

UPS & DOWNS

got addicted to reading Fmylife.com out of boredom,
seriously, some stuffs that ppl wrote are damn funny.


Today, at the dentist, I was getting my teeth cleaned. Looking up at his nose, I saw runny snot dripping onto his lip. I tried to slowly move away. He told me "Stop!" The movement of his lips caused the snot to fall right into my mouth. FML

Today, after seeing a girl for a few weeks on and off I sent her a text to see if she wanted to go out the next saturday. Predictive text changed "go" to "in". So..."Why don't we in out on saturday?" She stopped calling me. FML


CGH HR dept has been good recently,
another 200 bucks of attachment pay for jan :))
finally i see an increase in my bank's acct :))


going jogging at wee hours seems to be what i have been doing for the past few weeks. seriously, i just love jogging at night, its mind relaxing and best, its cooling :)) though its seems a lil dumb & unsafe for a girl to be jogging alone in the middle of the night.


had been thinking...

一个没有答案的问题

Kept Close to Me

just went for few rounds of jogging
the wind was cooling
made me think better & clearer


you once said responsiblities,
now you are throwing everything aside,
what's this?


plans has been made,
zouk next wednesday,
dbl O next friday.
lets party & drink !!


i hate it when things come to this point.

things dont go smooth, its over

dont ask me any questions.

not to worry, im alright. really.

Negatives

rainy and gloomy day.
perfect match to my mood.


responsibilities, you once said.
so where is urs??


i went for midnight jog ytd.
thought through alot of stuffs.
but no answers derived from it.
why why why?


i just cant help but keep thinking of the negatives.

happy 1 mth BF :))

Unsettled Feelings

head down to CGH for uniform fitting
got the smallest size: XXS,
for both dress and pants suit.
the dress is still a lil big lahhhhh :((

medical checkup at bedok.
my weight went down by 0.5kg.
wtf?! i ate so much & my weight still dropped?


NYP better send the transcript to us quick
i want to get over and done with the SNB registration.
its 100 bucks, of which 40 bucks can be reimbursed.

am happpy :))
200 bucks of attachment pay for dec just went in.
at the right moment :))


Fuck.
that sentence shldnt even come out from ur mouth.


i got no mood for wed clubbing.

why does it happen again & again? :((

Lost in thoughts

the world is really small.
A knows B, B knows C, C also knows A
people that you dont want them to meet,
will end up having their paths crossed.


so CGH HR department called,
uniform fitting is on next monday.
& it clashed with my driving lesson @^@$%#
now i've got to rescheduled it =.-
& i still have not done my medical check-up
tentative start work date: 13th April 09

actually i dont really want to start work so early
abit of the sian feeling
& im afraid that i'll forget everything
cos im only thinking of restaurant and tuition stuffs
ahhhh... no work = no $$


why am i having those thoughts in my mind?

BF coming back tmr morning ! :))

sweet

those korean guys working in the restaurant are HOT!!
next door Oosh restaurant waiters are HOT also :))
HAHAHA :))
pleasant working environment :))
lunch and dinner = korean food :))

6 ppl can spent $600+ in the restaurant.
no wonder everyday sales is so good.


sis: "can you stop smiling to ur phone, its sick."
HAHA :))

called from brunei without using calling card

1 min = 0.60cents

phone bill for this mth is going to be damn exp.

6 more days & he'll be back :))

Contented

they always say, dont irritate those ppl in service line
you wont know what extra ingrediants you'll have in ur dish
HAHA :)) some customers are just so f* up.

after a week of working,
there's blisters, cuts on my hands already :((
11am to 11pm working hours,
damn damn tiring :((


but for the sake of money,
to pay for all my expenses,
i will put a smile on and continue to work :))


i dont dare to look at this mth's phone bill
confirmed guranteed its alot :(((


they are going clubbing tonight.
but im working. why like that? :(((

7 more days.

things will be better :))

thanks for clearing my doubts :))

can time pass faster?

im getting poorer and poorer.
hospital still owes me attachment pay
st john still owes me $$
i seriously need more $$ :((


gonna stop buying clothes online.
gonna stop going shopping so often.
gonna stop drinking so often.
got to save save & save more $$.


working is the best way to save $$.
worked from 11am to 11pm.
at least there's income for my bank.
work lets time pass faster, days goes by quicker.


shall be a workaholic for the time being.

9 more days.

let days goes by faster pls.