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YAWNSSS.........

damn tired todae...cos slept at 2 plus am ....LOL....then woke up at 5 plus for OTC course day lor...haiz.... nearly late in meeting yq they all.... todae course day like a bit slack leh.... then i kept laughing during lectures... hahaha....lucky din get caught.... LOL

hmm....finish at 7 pm like that... then ate dinner at army market lor.....hmm....

VERY VERY SLEEPY

HOW CAN I KEEP MYSELF AWAKE???

BY THINKING OF THE PAST

OR

LOOKING FORWARD???

aiya....what am i doing??? lost in her thoughts....

hmm... this story was told by a friend of mine....

7th grade

i stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called " best friend " . i stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that . i knew it. after class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and i handed them to her. she said ' thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek, i wanna tell her , i want her to know that i don't wanna be just friends, i love her but i'm just too shy , and i don't know why.....

11th grade

the phone rang, on the other end it was her. she was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. she asked me to come over, because she din wan to be alone, so i did. as i sat on the sofa, i stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. after 2 hrs and 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. she looked at me. said ' thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek . i wanna tell her,i want her to know, that i don't wanna be just friends, i love her but i'm just too shy and i don't know why.....

Senior Year

the day before prom she walked to my locker. " my date is sick " she said he's not gonna to make it . well, i didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go togther just as " best friends " . so we did ...

Prom Night

after everything was over, i was standing at her front doorstep. i stared at her, she smiled at me, i want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that and i know it.. the she said " i had the best time, thanks! " and gave me a kiss on the cheek, i wanna tell her, i want her to know that i don't just want to be friends, i love her , but i'm just too shy and i don't know why.....

Graduation Day

a day passed, then a week , then a month. before i could blink, it was graduation day ...i watched as her perfect body floated as an angel up on stage to get her diploma. i wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and i knew it. before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her, then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said " you're my best friend, thanks ! " and gave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanna tell her , i want her to know that i don't wanna be just friends, i love her but i'm just too shy, and i don't know why.......

A few Years later

now i sit in the pews of the church . that girl is getting married now. i watched her say " i do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. i wanted her to be mine, but she din see me like that and i knew it. before she drove away, she came to me and said " u came ! thanks ! " and kissed me on the cheek. i wanna tell her , i want her to know that i dun wanna be just friends, i love her but i'm just too shy and i dun noe why.....

Years Passed

i looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my " best friend" . at the service, they read a diary entry she wrote in her high school years. this is what it read : i stare at him wishing he was mine, but he din notice me like that, i know it. i wanna tell him, i want him to know that i dun wanna be just friends. i love him but i'm too shy and i dun now why.... i wished he would tell me he loved me... i wished i did too.... i thought to myself and i cried.....

I CRIED ...

i can't be selfish.... i noe.... but i just can't forget... u shld noe what i meant....

tmr got to go down to ev at 9am to help arrange st john room lor... then going straight down to zone meeting liao... another long long day... when can i get to rest ???

U MADE ME HAPPIE