someone told me not to think too much and take time to go rest myself properly....

u think that i like to think too much ?? why would i want to make myself so miserable??

it's because of the words that u said, that u cared..but in order not to be selfish... i chose this path...that to be just friends... this might not be the ans that you want, but wad can i do?? if i had accepted it, would u be able to forget the past?? **shrug**

thus chosing this path....seems like a better choice for me...

recently, i asked u a qn.. and u gave me an ans....though not in so many words, but i noe wad you are trying to say.... u still cannot forget ....

and i have been thinking over it...am i regreting now??? haiz... but i think e ans will still be the same.... no.... think its still better for us to be friends....

**how many times can a person really love in his/her lifetime?? **

--> ans: many many times??
--> ans: one time??

think about it

and if u found an ans, how many times is for real?? is that person worth the love??

its all over...

Wake Up... stop thinking over it... it's not going to make a difference...

maybe if i really dun think about it....as wad u said...my headache will go away.... thanx for your concern...=)

woo...todae watch movie...title " the wild "....hahax....veri nice movie lorx... the movie was very funny... veri entertaining...hehe...now like addicted to watching cartoon movies le... and more cartoon movies are coming out ...yea...going to watch all of it ... haha....

watching this type of movie ...hmmm....can let me relax myself and temporary forget about my problems.... hmmm....

Ooo...got three days holiday..haha... finally can rest le.... hope that my headache will go away by then ..... =( ....

after taking my medicine... still got a terrible headache leh...doesn't seems to help at all...maybe i shld not think too much ba.... haiz...dunnoe lar....

(hehe...my grp photo...NR0604.... can find me ma???haha...i'm e one in green lor)

hmm...todae lessons all quite okie ba... understand wad the lecturer are saying ...
haha....a gd sign....hehe...start on the topic biochem todae....learnt most of the things when in sec sch le...so easy to understand...hahah.....

had lessons till 6pm...and u noe wad..it rained AGAIN lor.... omg...the passage way flood again....then christina very playful...while walking in the water, she go and kicked the water onto me and jovin...then our shoes and the bottom of our pants all wet....hahaha...

then reached simei le...usual thing...ling yu go home lor....haha....wa...if this carrys on...sooner or later i'm going to catch a cold lor...haiz...sian....

then flipped thru my lectures notes on BONES and try to see if i can rmb anything on it....hehe....as expected lor...cannot rmb...then go read the txtbook...hmm.... think understand a little bit le lor...haha...

yea...no sch on monday....but we have to study on our own for those lectures that we missed on that day lor...sian...quite a lot leh.... but nvm la... is like that de lor... lolx... talking rubbish again ....

STUPID headache....nvm la.... just let the pain carry on...maybe that way...i wun think too much....

early in the morning...rain....haha...the weather is so cold lor....haha...wad a day to slp and not go sch .....haha....hmm....todae sch quite boring lar.... except for lab sessions...learnt how to take blood pressure ...quite fun... din noe there are so many things to noe when taking blood pressure lor...haha... then we practice till our hand are numb lor...

then after that ....something veri veri funny happen lor... my friend, kaiting..the sole of her right shoe fell out and it was beyond repairable (hmm..is there such a word??haha)...and we were like...omg...so how??... and u noe wad...she calmly walked over to the dustbin and threw her shoes inside... and she walked barefooted lor... haha.. all of us were laughing like mad.....she went to borrow a pair of slippers frm our mentor lor...and the slippers were like so flowery....doesn't suit her ....wahahaha=)...

hmm....finally finish the topic on bones for bio sci le... must do self study liao... din really pay much attention for those lectures... but tmr starting new topic... chemistry lor...yes!!!...hehe...cos that subject i noe ma....haha....

hmm...finish sch at 4 plus lor...so tired liao....plus of that stupid headache....then go home le...fell asleep on my bed...woke up at 8 plus then go online lor...haha.... but now still a bit sleepy la...haha.... tmr is another boring day ...start sch at 8am and finish at 6pm..wad the.....so tiring lor...all the lectures one shot 2 hrs de... haiz....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol...todae sch still okie ba...all lectures, dun have lab lessons...hmm...can understand wad the lecturer is talking ..=)...cos todae dun have bio sci lesson ma..haha... got a 2 hr break in sch lor...then go sit down and chit chat at the library ...haha...we even slept a while lor...haha....we r really pigs...=)...lol....

hmmm....finish sch at 3 plus todae... and omg...it was raining cats and dogs outside lor.... again!!!....and as usual, the passage way was flooded...so difficult to walk....haha....those who wore jeans were unlucky lor...it was all wet ...haha....

after that ...me, jovin and christina decided to go jurong point...haha...last min de lor... then we rush into the train...then the ppl on board thought we crazy de...haha... sit all the way to boon lay...hmm...about thirty minutes ba...

then reach le go walk walk then hungry le...hmm...go banquet and eat...then order chicken rice and eat..haha... after that jovin gtg work le...so we left jurong pt...then took train back...jovin alighted at lavander while i sat all e way to simei....long journey lor...hmm...took the opportunity to rest myself...stupid headache lor...

reach simei le...still raining..then ling yu go home...(again lor)....if it rains everyday... then i'm going to ling yu everyday le ....haiz...sian....

never make somebody your everything, cause when they are gone, you've got nothing...

todae is a boring day lor...felt like sleeping through out all the lectures .... not that i dun want to pay attention ...but the lecturer was just reading off from the powerpoint slides, without any explanation....pls...we also noe how to read....that type of lecture bore everybody....plus i'm still sick lor....haiz....

hmm...dun understand wad they taught todae...have to study by myself le..... if not later cannot catch up with the lesson....esp bio sci lesson....talk in chim chim de language....haha....

then when going home that time heavy rain..luckily got shelther all the way to yio chu kang mrt station lor...but when reach simei...no more shelther le...then ling yu all the way home lor...hmmm.....

reach home le...did my tutorial homework....i veri gd de lor...haha....

thinking over wad u had said.....made me feel....(dunnoe how to say here)....

PRAY HARD AND HOPE THAT THE HEADACHE WILL GO AWAY

hmm...sch todae...feeling veri sian....ytd someone told me smth which i have been thinking about it...wonder wad makes that person want to say that...(thinking over it)..

registering for elective now....hmm...will start on wk4 monday...frm 4pm to 7pm.... haha....frm wk 4 onwards....monday will be a veri veri long day le...haiz....

siansation lor....stupid stupid headache.....=(....

todae is a FUN day...went kayaking in the morning with sir jian wen, sir yuan zheng, sir william, angeline, sc and cass at bedok reservoir...lol...then reach there at arnd 9.30am...do the neccessary things then we brought the kayak down to the water...

hmm...then started kayaking....was damn fun lor....haha...then had a race of 100m... did a lot of fun things ba...

hehe...then we kayak and did lots of stupid things there...haha....went up at arnd 12.30pm...haha....hurt my back there cos sc accidentally hit my back with the kayak boat lor...so pain ...=(....and guess wad...i got sun burnt and was tanned...haha....=)

aftter that go bath and then went to eat lunch le... then sit there chit chat then went back to tampines to play pool...(again lor)..haha....by then my headache came back again and plus my back pain...i superly no mood le...sian...but still continue to play with them la...

hmm...went back home at 6 plus like that...hehe...just bath again lor...haha....then now eating dinner...i'm veri tired le .....haiz...tmr still got sch lor...lectures , lectures and more lectures....haiz....

wad the heck is wrong with me lor...keep having headache which dun seems to get better...more problems coming up which i dun have the ans to it.... things that i cannot seems to let go.... confusing thoughts in my mind.... juz many many things on my mind....

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

juz feel like venting it all out lor...

i need a hug and a shoulder to cry on...

todae got first aid exam...have to reach sch at 10.30am lor...then think will end at arnd 6pm ba...cos the whole zone 8 will be there ...sian..have to wait so long lor... ytd speech day so quite okie la...haha...

i going to go crazy soon if my headache dun get better...seriously,because of this..i dun have mood to do things lor...sian....

:: i'm tired :: i shld just forget everything ::

yesterdae i am early for sch!!yeas..=) haha....todae got two modules...one is bio sci and the other one is fundamentals of nursing lor...haha....sian...i DUN understand wad the lecturer is talking for the bio sci part...all the chimalogy stuffs..... -.-'''

sch will end at 4pm lor..hope the lecturer will release us early..haha....

then todae ev got speech day...want to go down see...but scared the sercurity guard dun let me in the sch lor...sian....cos by the time reach ev is already 5pm..then the parade start le....nvm ....see how ba...

shit lor...i haven take my passport size photos for the otc application form lor... and it is due tmr...dun noe whether i got time to take todae ma....sian....

i no mood lor...cos my head still hurts ...it has been like this since monday .... and it doesn't seems to get better ....=(.... haiz..... WAD IS WRONG WITH ME??? arghhh.......

walking in the rain, u wun noe that i am crying

haven blog for the past few days cos busy with sch and sjab... hmm....its damn sickening lor...i have been late for sch three times this wk le...sian....luckily haven issue matric card...if not confirm die liao.... hmmm......

this few days in sch learnt quite a lot of new things ba...but the i dun quite understand the bio sci part lor...haha...now muz really study le...then made lots of new friends...hehe...=) ...ya....poly life quite okie ba...but a bit bored lor...

bought 2 reference bk yesterdae...* fundamentals of nursing* and *human anatomy and physiology*..cost me $100 + + .... ex rite...still got 2 more ..haha..haven buy lor..

woke up quite early todae.....so blog here while waiting to leave for sch..todae is such a LONG day for me....sch start at 10am and end at 6pm!!!!...omg.....and we are only having two modules todae....so todae is only lab , lecture ,then lab, then lecture...which last arnd 2hr each....-.-'''

dun think i going down to east view todae le..cos sch end at 6pm...maybe meeting them for dinner lor...haha.....

this sat is afa re exam, afa exam and efa re exam .... and i haven even practice yet... haha....but shld be okie de la....

this few days quite sian for me ....cos having bad headache for few days le and it doesn't seems to be better for me lor...haiz....wondering wad is wrong with me.... am i too stress or am i thinking too much??? *shrug*

--- AM I IN THE WRONG ??? ---

hmm....first day of sch was okie la...but i'm soooo tired lor...haha....lesson starts at 11 am todae but i had to go early to meet my grp to buy books for the course lor... hehe... then reach le...buy books...then go for lecture le....after that more lectures and then lunch...

lunch at mac...was quite okie...i'm going to be so scared of fastfood restaurants le... cos i have been eating it for the past few days and the thing is...mac is just at my sch of health sci blk...arghh...going to get sick and tired of it...but luckily there are food courts in front and beside my blk..haha....so there are still choices for me...

after that is lab sessions le..woOoo...was so fun lor...doing practical....=)...but the dummy look quite scary ..haha.....

aniwae...biological sci seems like a difficult module to study ...all the chim chim stuffs are inside...then a lot of phrases...haha...but i will try my veri best to study it well.. haha....

then at nite got zone meeting...hmmm....just submit some forms and talked about some stuffs lor....

reach hm at arnd 11pm...sian.....then i got headache...also dunnoe y this few days keep having headache lor....maybe i got a lot of things on my mind ba...

tmr lessons start at 9am....but have to leave hm at 8.30am.....scared i late...cos todae i nearly late for sch due to the stupid traffic jam lor...haha.....

going to rest le...if not tmr i slp during lecture then sian liao.... hopefully my headache will go away ....=)

----------lots of things are on my mind----------

POLY SCH STARTS TODAE!!!! =) =)

hehe..nice rite...the back of my sch of health sci shirt

haha...that was taken frm my sch of health sci shirt lor....haha....so nice rite... lol... i'm crapping again le...hmm...sch starts on nxt monday le...no more holidays for me .... anyway ....i'm quite scared of holidays now...haha....cos stuck at hm ...nthing to do for arnd 5 months le....haha.....

hmm...not much to blog le...so sian at home....just finished doing my st john stuffs lor...haha....

wow!! todae is a fun and tiring day !! had my poly orientation today... woke up so early in the morning lor...so tired..*yawns*...haha..then meet my friends at tampines interchange then take direct bus 72 ...took us about 1 hr to reach lor...nearly late...

reach le...the whole auditorium was filled with school of health science freshmen... haha...then went to take attendance....then i found that i wasn't in the same grp as any of my friends...oh god...hehe...but luckily my grp are people hu are veri enthu de... my grp is NR0604...hehe..we rocks!! =)...total there are 30 nursing grps...

then listen to various directors, lecturers introducing the campus and the sch infrastructure lor....hmm...a bit boring la.... then told us a lot of things ... was deciding whether a not to join a cca...

they gave a time table....omg...it was so confusing lor....dunnoe how to read... but slowly will get used to it de ..=)...

after that went for lunch..had interaction session with my grp...got to know quite a lot of friends...=)... then went back to auditorium .... where they briefed us on the game that we are going to play ----treasure hunt----

it was so fun but also tiring at the same time, cos have to run arnd the campus to complete the task lor.... hehe ..then we did a lot of funny things and we keep cheering..woo...all were very enthu lor...=)....

hmm..then there are prizes for the treasure hunt lor.... then our grp won the most ENTHUSIASTIC prize... haha...veri happie....

then arnd 6 plus end le...then take bus go home le....also spend 50 plus mins on the bus crapping with my friends ....nearly fell asleep on the way back ...haha....then went to have my dinner ....

going to start sch on monday le...first lesson at 11am...haha...but end at 6 plus lor... sian...then have to rush down to hq for zone meeting...think going to skip dinner on that day le...haha....

NR0604 ROCKS !!

hmm...nthing much for today ba....

tmr got nyp school of health science orientation...frm 8.30am to 6.30pm lor.... quite long lor....haha....hmm....must wake up early le...haha....

hehe...thats all for todae ba...quite a short post lor...haha...=)

(= --5 more days to sch starts-- =)

hehe...todae wake up so early lor...now still veri tired...haha... think todae shld be staying at home ba....so sian...nthing to do lor...haha....

hmm....here's a number joke...

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 and 10.
Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again back to 1.
This was what he came up with...
1 day I go 2 climb up a 3 outside a house to peep.
But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down.
The man rush out and wanted to 5 with me.
I run so fast until I fall 6 and throw up.
So I go into 7 eleven and grab some 8 to throw at him.
Then I took a 9 and try to stab him.
10 God he run away.
So, I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7 eleven.
Next day, I call my boss and say I am 6.
He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work.
He also asks me to climb a 3 and jump down.
I don't understand,
I so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1.

haha...funny rite...=)

hmm...haven been updating this few days....

ytd, sports day public duty at Temasek Poly...then missed 4 buses....y?? cos they were full of east view ppl hu are going to tp...haha..then luckily mr lau is on his way and saw me still at the bus stop at 7.20am(which is late le), gave me a ride...squeeze in the car with hui xian, dionis and sin yee hu followed mr lau to help carry things lor...haha....the weather on that day is so damn hot lor....hmm....then walk around to make sure things run smoothly...quite a few casualty lor...mostly cramp ba...then the whole event end at arnd 1pm....then went out to eat lunch at pastamania...
hmm...was veri nice...keep joking with them ....hahha...after that.. went walk walk around tm lor....hahah....

todae went down to hq for the cji brifing for snco this yr...for the alpha... after that they got their platoon interaction lor....then went to eat at tm with yq they all and went back home le....

YES!!!finally recover from my headache le...hahaha...so happie lor.... =) but still got the stupid cough la.... =(

hmm...nthing to do at home....sian....

-- 9 more days to sch starts --

starting the day with a terrible headache lor...ouch!!!! haiz...sian lor.... cos of this cannot go out... stuck at home doing nthing lor... hmm..better pray hard that i will recover tmr lor...haha...

tmr going down to temasek polytechnic in the morning for sports day duty .... so gd.... they dun have lessons on that day lor...haha.... think i will reach by 7am ba... wa... so early lor... been quite some time since i woke up so early le...haha....

hmm...i shldn't think too much...only make my headache worse....

i need a hug and a shoulder to cry on... who can i confide all my problems to??

hmmm......second post of the day le... just now went for st john...hehe...had a fun p.t session with the corp...we ran arnd the whole sch and shouted cheers at the same time...( for me also coughing at the same time lor)....haha...sick ma.....after p.t...my headache became worse...oh gosh!!...

training end at arnd 6.40pm....then went opposite eat with my platoon...haha... eat and chit chat till arnd 8.30pm like that...then went home le....

hmm....now i'm still coughing and having a terrible headache lor.... ouch!!! haiz... sian... make me no mood to type le lor....

thans for being so concerned about me... sorrie to make u worry about me.... hmm... till now then i realised that u so guan xin wo...haha....

sianz...keeping all the problems to myself only made me feel worse, not better... so shld try and let it out.... but crying doesn't seems to solve the problem... *shrug*

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hehez....lets update about ytd...haha....

ytd go watch the movie " ice age " with yong qing, boon hoe and daryl lor...haha.... watch the 7pm show...b4 that went to eat at long john...but i din eat ....cos dun feel like eating ma....haha...then walk walk arnd until 7pm... bought ice lemon tea to drink inside...

the show was like so funny lor...haha....keep laughing n also (coughing)....dunno y... maybe cos i ling yu on my way to tm lor....haha....was drenched like ..(dunno how to describe) oopess....i side tracked le...haha....the characters in the show were all so cute lor...and the things that they say and do were also hilarious lor...hahah.....the show lasted about 1hr 30 mins lor...hehe....quite cold in the cinema lor....hahah.... so those who want to watch a movie that can destress u, make u laugh non-stop...then watch ice age ba...hahah...looks like i'm the promoter for it lor...haha.....

hmm....two more new cartoon movies are coming out le....confirm going to watch with my platoon again....cos they also want watch...the short previews of the two movies are also damn funny lor....haha.....nowadays keep watching this type of movies lor.... maybe this is the best way that i can laugh out loud and forget my problems for a while lor...

then todae got to go down to ev to help teach the delta and alpha cpr and bandaging...to prepare them for their first aid exam....yup...hehe....

are things getting better?? i'm also unsure of it..**shrug**....been keeping a lot of things to myself lately...thanks to those who cared for me.... sorrie to worry u guys.... seems that there aren't anibody that i can confide my problems to....nvm ba... lets take one step at a time and see wad happen nxt .....

heheez....later going to watch the movie" ice age " with yong qing they all...yeas..=)..
haha lor....think its going to be quite fun ba...everytime go out with them will laugh non stop de lor...haha....going to watch the 5.20 pm show....so frm now to 5pm, still quite long so come blog lor..

hmm....tmr got to go down for st john earlier lor....cos got to teach the alpha and delta cpr and badaging to prepare them for the upcoming afa and efa re- exam....ya.... hehe....

hmm...then todae he sick...so muz drinks lots of water and rest lor...haha.... and pls, he is not the guy that i like...juz a friend whom i dun want to mention his name here.. haha....

lol....haha....will update on how's the movie after i have watch ...haha....=D

is it my fault that things turn out this way???? i hope not....cos i dun want to lose our frenship.... i think i have made the correct decision and i will not regret it....cherish wad u have now, i dun want things to turn out the wrong way for u guys......

STAY HAPPIE , PPL.... ^ . ^

hmm....yesterdae was april's fool day lor....haha....tricked my frenz and they fell for it lor....haha....

todae at home quite bored la....hehez...having poly orientation on 13th april lor.... hmm....think they going to brief us about the course and the campus lor....blah blah blah....haha.... frm my hse to nyp will take about 1hr 30 mins lor...long rite??..haha.. but if take bus shld be arnd 1 hr la.....hmm...also quite long lor....can slp on the journey there ...haha....

hmm....yq they all say tmr want go watch the movie 'ice age' ..haha....shld be funny de lor... but not confirm yet lar....haha....

okie.....going out soon...shall blog more when i have the time...haha =)