Monday, July 31, 2006

EYES SWOLLEN AGAIN

wth...

august is here le...which means exams are in 17 more days.... which means.... have to start studying and preparing for it le...

hmm...

it terriblely hurts a lot...

Sunday, July 30, 2006

重来 , by [[ 李圣杰 ]]

有多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之後才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害
深爱的人
一离开
是我不敢忽略
你给我的爱
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之後
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道
你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的我
一切重头
真的需要你的我
只要你回头
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你在泪流寂寞
之後只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要你的
我只要你回头

wad a nice song....and as usual ....i'm still not asleep yet lor... must study for theory exam thats going to happen in just few hours time....omg..and i just started studying lor...doubt it will go into my head lor... LOL.... my MOI first aid is like shit lor... also dunnoe wad i doing .....

damn lot things to study....but going to focus on just a few important topics lor.... cos not enough time le... then later still got to wake up early .... think will have only 2 hrs sleep like that....

AND...

MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN lor...

and it hurts .....cannot even open properly lor....

i'm the group i/c for todae course day .... hope there wun be a lot of things that i got to do..... theory exam is the first thing after first parade...then followed by first aid MOI ....which will take up the whole day....

woah.... ytd...which is sat.... had training in the morning.... then later go down to hq with the sec 1 for their EFA exam... the whole exam quite long lor...from 3.30pm to 6pm like that...

after that went back to ev....then ate dinner there...and chit chat lor...reach home at 9 plus like that.....so tired le....

so very tired.... but i had to go on....

cos i care.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

hmm...so fast ...and it's sat le.... time now is 0100am... and i'm still not sleeping... LOL... got to finish my OTC first aid MOI lor....this sun must present...and this sunday is the last OTC course day le... only left with the camp...and BGI... which is our big project...

then later got sj training... CDO lor...hmm...

falling asleep
is that a wrong step taken.

Friday, July 28, 2006

彩虹天堂

我不知不觉

又徘徊在从前

秋风悄悄的呼唤

听来尽是孤单

落叶的期盼

片片左右为难

心走寂寞攀

跟著飘进黑暗

我不闻不问

也许好过一点

被遗憾关在房间

挣扎只是拖延

无望的空谈

一声声的轻叹

回忆扯不断

怎黱摆脱纠缠

找不到方向

往彩虹天堂

有你说的爱

在用幸福触摸忧伤

两个人相守

直到白发苍苍

自由的飞翔

在灿烂的星光

找不到方向

往彩虹天堂

有你说的爱

在用幸福触摸忧伤

两个人相守

直到白发苍苍

自由的飞翔

在灿烂的星光

有你在我身旁

smile and i'll smile
cos i care =)

Thursday, July 27, 2006

I PASSED MY CLINICAL EXAM !!!! LOL.... =)

i was so nervous lorx.... din quite a few stupid mistakes... and i mean it ... it was damn stupid .... only sotong ppl like me will commit de... LOLx....haha.... then luckily... i got a nice examiner.... stayed in the room for quite long..... and after the whole thing... i din think it was as difficult as i thought lor.... maybe too nervous ba...since this is the first time taking this exam....

haha.... so happie =D

wahaha...tmr no lessons...so equal to ..no need go sch... haha... hmm...a bit lame hor...LOL... but got to go do projects... that's wad holidays are for... to do projects... hmm...

these few days....terrible weather lorx... so hot de lorx.... can't stand it... lucky most of the time inside air con room.... but still very warm lorx...

and .... i was totally sian after i heard one news... i'm posted to GEYLANG EAST POLYCLINIC for my FHS attachment lor.... i was like wth.... why so far away??? and together with me are 2 more guys from my grp ...and they all also stay in tampines lorx..... TAMPINES POLYCLINIC dun want us izzit??? send us so far away ...LOL ... *sob sob*

u seems further than i thought

semestral exams are in less than a month... got to start preparing le.....haiz.....

hmm...think is a mistake on my my part....but wad u said...is true from your heart.. i noe... hmm....wondering am i doing the wrong thing... hmm...nvm....time will reveal the answer...

a mistake made

things wouldn't have turned out this way if i din....i should have....

anyway.thanx for that day.u really made me smile when i'm down.

i do for the sake of doing or am i doing it whole heartedly.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

got clinical exam tmr.... ALL THE BEST TO ME !!! =)

think i have made a mistake. maybe i shouldn't even have started that at all .

Monday, July 24, 2006

feeling damn fucked up !!!!!!!!!

Saturday, July 22, 2006

long time din blog le lorx... these few days damn busy...that's why... busy till i got no time for myself also... everydae sleep at 2 plus then few hours later got to wake up to sch le.... so now..every opportunity i have...i will go sleep de.... haha... sounds like a pig lorx.... =)

monday got exam lor...some more important de...and i HAVEN even study yet lorx... hope tmr got time after i come back from otc to study.... haiz...

so many things have happened.....

i find that the things that u do and say contradict urself.... u said u are disappointed in us... but i'm equally disappointed in u too.. u are not the one that i noe le... maybe i dun really understand u ba... u may say that i'm talking rubbish... dun like me... or wadsoever....is not that i want to zhen dui ni... that's just how i feel ....i dunnoe wad to say le.... haiz....

hmm...feeling stressed lor.... got damn lot of things to do....sch de...sjab de.... that's enough to keep me busy le lorx... haiz... think my committment level is going to drop le... cos attachment coming liao... then have to go hospital everydae ..... hmm.... but will still try my best to finish all stuffs that i'm supposed to do lorx....

sch projects also drive me crazy lor... year 1 only... then so many projects to do le.... year 2 and 3 gonna to have more le lor.... and time limit for the upcoming big project is..... 1 week lor... and some more that week got exams leh... then if must do.... got to do at night liao... LOL.... sleeping time gone again.... sad....

now i'm like an owl lor... sleep in the morning..(during lectures)...so bad of me rite?? haha....then do work at night.... LOL... hmm...

seems like i got no mood to do anything...no mood to study...[but no choice, have to] ....no mood to go anywhere..... no mood to do this and that.... wonder wad the heck is wrong with me la....

suddenly....i feel like giving up everything... seriously...it's everything.... i dun want to care about anything.... i just dun feel like carrying on le.... i'm tired... hope that feeling will go away.... =(

anyway...thanks for being so concern...i really appreciate....u sort of make things a liitle better for me ba... thanx....

that feeling of uncertainty is here......i dunnoe wad to do.... the way u treat me... and the things that u said... hmm.... nvm.... hmmm....

feel that i'm such a failure lor... everything also.... haiz.... maybe i haven found my motivation ba... also dunnoe wad am i thinking lor... seems like .................. nvm....

have i changed???

this post very long.... just my thoughts.... if u find that i'm talking nonsense...then i got no choice....cos that's how i feel..... hmm.....

todae got games day lor...haha...this year held at ev....LOL...then early in the morning went to meet them for the 'so call' breakfast....haha.... wa...very busy lor... but not as busy as yq and alan...u guys did a great job....=) ... i was the one who is coordinating all the games results.... LOL.... suntan under the sun from morning to afternoon lor... until got a bit sunburn....haha...

then after that is snco entry exam le.... was the Duty Officer lor...appointed by Sir pia leong...hahaha.....then got to make sure things runs smoothly...everything finish by 1830 hrs like that.... thnen went coffee shop and eat... and the conversation that we all had were damn funny lor...and i dunnoe how many times i choke on my food le.. quite stupid rite???wahahah..... then all walked to 201...hehe...and went home le...

tmr still got OTC course sia...last course day le... then following week is exam day liao....got to do my first aid MOI lorx...and also study .... hope i got time to study for the theory exam.... haiz....

why are things always not going the way that i want??

why

why

why

going to fall asleep any moment...but got to open my eyes....and finish wad i'm supposed to do lor.... haiz.....

wei shen me xiang ai de ren bu nen gou zai yi qi

thanx
smile and i'll smile
cos i care =)

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

enjoy the photos =)

the back of the bravo tee shirt

before .....

and after .... wahahha.....

chairman...angeline representing bravo to give her speech

Bravo 2003during their POP...

hmm...above photos are taken during Bravo POP.... which is on last sat.... 150706.. that day is also Sir William COC ....hmm.... ooo...ya....also Alpha POP on that day... their tears dropped when Sir Pia tat speech is read out... a touching one i should say...now that u guys have passed out....i hope that u all will put 101% effort in ur studies and achieve good results.... see u all after ur O level....

COC.... guests from various corp came....the ceromony is held in the AVT... a video clip was shown ... and i did.... dropped tears when i saw that few slides.... really ... those are the times that we had together.... but it seems that things have changed now... it's different now... and wad happened on that day...i still dun understand y u choose to do that....

160706

OTC course day..... hmm...had a whole day lecture on effective presentation skills... a very fun lecture lorx....haha.... enjoy the lecture taught.... then after that went to meet sir pt they all for dinner lorx.... reach home le still have to do projerct lorx... very very tiring liao...haiz....

170706

todae nothing much in sch.....oh ya... clinical practical starts today.... woo... mine is on 270706... have to revise and revise le.... then got zone meeting .... and i'm late meeting them...sorrie....they waited for me to come then have dinner ...* thanx* reach home.... do some sch work... then fell asleep le.... reallly very tired.....

180706

todae......also nthing much la.... just that i skipped a lecture....sociology de... haiz..... also dunneo y i keep skipping lorx... tmr got clinical theory test... wish me luck worx... haha.... then after that got to go meet sir pt they all for meeting lorx.... so busy....

i really feel like crying now.... sch results sucks..... things going wrong.... so many things to do which are due this week...and i dunnoe how i'm going to finish doing it lorx.... i dunnoe how i'm going to cope.... really... few weeks later.... semestral exams are coming le....and i'm not prepared for it.... i just..... dunnoe..... how..... to ..... continue le...... and i'm not to care wad u are thinking le...... i dun want to be bothered by it.... haiz....

will crying help??

smile and i'll smile cos i care =)

Friday, July 14, 2006

hmm...i PASSED my sociology test....yeas...okay, may not seems to be a big deal to u all...but IT IS to ME !!! haha....

tmr is a long long day....got bravo POP , COC.... hmm... going to be quite tiring ba...

LOL

hmm...i dunnoe wad to say.... He sort of shock mi lorx... maybe i'm thinking too much...

u are really a double-sided person...i dun trust u anymore...and i can't be bothered to noe wad u are going to do ....

wonder wad's going to happen tmr....

hmm...

different thoughts are running through my mind now... positive de...negative de.... i dunnoe wad to do le... my life is in a mess... i'm so packed with things to do everyday

...... and i can't finish it.... how how how?? and my studies also sucks lorx... only obtained a just pass for tests..... haiz.... maybe i should just concentrate on my studies lorx.... haiz.... feeling quite stressed up... =(

i'm still siick... haiz...

smile and i'll smile =)
-cos i care-

Thursday, July 13, 2006

semestral exams in 1 months time... got to buck up and work hard le.... this time round must get good marks le, not like other tests...the results so lan lorx....

exams starts on 17th Aug....

xing juan , MUST WORK HArD hor...

LOL...

my life sucks

smile and i'll smile =)

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

nthing to say

just this

thanx...i'll remember it

smile and i'll smile =)

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

haiz.....

i flunked my bio practical exam.......=(

got to retake lorx....

why why why

maybe i too busy then nv prepare well ba... wadever....

dun want to type anymore le....

it just sucks

=(

smile and i'll smile

Monday, July 10, 2006

hmm....very tiring ....

lets update about last sat's event...

last sat is ev Corp Recreation Day... can say it is a well done activity planned by the bravos... WELL DONE PPL =) enjoy myself that day....went to the beach there... the sight is wonderful....i felt so relax there...staring at the sea..thought through about lots of things....then got bbq...woo....very hot there lorx... cos standing at the pit there bbqing...lots of ppl must have felt that way too...then 9 plus le...played some games ... very very fun la...got a few "black" faced ppl...haha...shld noe who la.... then went home at 11 plus like that.... and slept at 2am like that.....

haiz....my leg hurts that day too.. cannot walk properly....=(

Sunday le...

b4 i left the hse...my leg cramp again...had to rest for 5 mins b4 making my way out...

woke up at 5am for National competition lorx... had to be there early lor...it's at guangyang pri sch...all the way at bishan....very far lorx.....nearly late.... but luckily not lor... was assigned to be the time keeper for ambulance cadet TOC lorx... hmm... no comments for some of the teams la...it's just .................. after the whole thing ended, had to clear up the whole place.....left the place at 7 plus... then went J8 to look for them and took bus home....

wasn't feeling well that day too... =(

then todae is a rainy day lorx... rain rain rain.... so cold.... brrr..... sneeze and sneeze lorx....

i felt a bit hurt.....by e words she said about them, and wad he said....really.....i'm jealous.... but forget it since it's not mine ...

ai yi ge ren bing bu yi ding yao yong you ta
zhi yao ta xing fu kuai le ju zu gou le
suai ran na hui ran ni de xin gan jue hen tong
dan zhe yang hui bi jiao hao yi xie

anyway...i think i have ......................with...................... LOL.......

wad a busy schedule i have....

haiz.....

better make sure i recover fast wor....

haiz.....

dunno wad will be ur ans

hmmm...thanx for that.... =D
smile and i'll smile =)

Friday, July 07, 2006

sch at 3pm , then finish at 4pm....... dots.......go sch just for presenation then come back liao....-.-'''

sian.........

MY THROAT REALLY HURTS A LOT LORX....

OUCH!!!!

tmr full day of activities sia....got trg in the morning ...then in the afternoon/evening got bbq.... till late night.... then the following day....in the early morning , got to go down for OTC...for national competition lorx..... then till late night again....

haiz....packed day lorx....

no rest for me le =(

ouch ouch ouch ouch

think that hurts a bit....( not referring to my sore throat)

i'm lost.....

problems without solutions = making me crazy

feeling of sadness is back

smile and i'll smile =)

Thursday, July 06, 2006

BIO PRACTICAL EXAM WAS A KILLER !!!!

LOL...

seriously...it was very difficult.... arghhhh......if i can just pass i'm happie le....

tmr got presenation lor....sian.... this week got so many lor.... -.-'''

feeling a bit better liao...at least no more fever le...but got flu and cough lor.... =(

todae weather very cold lor...... *ah choo* sneeze and sneeze.....

was damn angry at someone todae.....arghhh..... to HER : if u think that u have a bf now and u dun need us anymore, can u dun show us that f****** attitude.... we are just talking to u normally lor, trying to make conversation, u dun have to ignore us de rite..... u happie happie then talk to us...not happie then dun talk.... u think very fun ar?? wad if one day u are being treated like that?? will u be happie?? ..... and seriously.... we dun like the attitude that u gave us ..... early in the morning show us black face....spoil our mood lor....

Grrr.............

nvmm....i shall not stay angry for so long....later will age faster de lorx....hahah.....

i dunnoe y ..... that feeling came back again....

smile and i'll smile =)

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

bio practical is tmr.... gosh....i still haven finish studying lorx... heard that it is quite difficult leh.... sian....

todae presentation still okay ba.... the lecturer says...."todae all present quite well, well done"...so shld be okie ba....

hehex...click on this link to take the test to see how jealous u are....

http://tests.studentcenter.org/jealousytest.php

here are my results lorx...

You are 30.16% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
533860 people have taken this test to date.
This percentage means that :
You are not a jealous person, but sometimes can be.
Occasionally, you over-react to situations.
Most of the time, you trust the people around.
Jealously will not be a major issue in relationships


now bones de names, cells and their function , tissues, joints , biochemistry .... bla bla....is all i can think of now..... hahax.....

after tmr...my brain cells can rest for a while le.... then got to rush for my presentation on friday...LOLx.....

now also nthing to type lor.....cos i thinking about bio now.... LOLx....

sad to say...i'm still sick lorx.... haven recover yet..... =(

smile and i'll smile =)

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i'm attached to cgh for my attachment lor... haha...so near to my hse lor... no need to wake up so early ...hehe..... attached to ward 44 lor....medical ward .... hmmm.... first batch to go in for attachment for year 2006 april cohort.... starting from 28/8 to 8/9... straight after exams lor... but nvm ...after that got 1 week break... then polyclinic de attachment...then it's a 3 weeks holiday for ME !!!...

yeas.... so happie....=)

tmr got presentation lor... got to wear formal...that lecturer is particular about that lorx.. haha.... then have finished preparing yet ....

then thurs de bio practical exam, i'm only halfway thru studying it lor... now my head all full of bones the names.... and their function...bla bla bla....

LOL...

still sick lar....still got fever and flu and cough lor... haiz....

feeling so terrible lorx....=(

i'm so STRESSED now lor.... exams are starting le... and i dun seems to be prepared for it .....

the little bit of sadness is back again... and i wonder y....

smile and i'll smile =)

Monday, July 03, 2006

lol...still not feeling better...in fact it is getting worse... arghh.... i hate flu and cough!!!! still got high fever lor...haiz....

got back my results for life science module...and i PASS !!!! yeas...*clap clap*...=)

LOL....

this week is very very packed for me... and also tiring lor...

bio practical exam is on thursday... presentation is on friday... training and corps recreational day is on saturday and national competition is on sunday... then the following monday got exam.....

...........

the feeling of STRESS is back again....

hmm..here's smth for those who are feeling stress...(including me lor) haha....=D

Stress Reliever #1

Wife: You always carry my photo in your handbag to the office.? Why?
Hubby: When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the problem disappears.
Wife: You see, how miraculous and powerful I am for you?
Hubby: Yes, I see your picture and say to myself, "What other problem can there be greater than this one?"

Stress Reliever #2

Girl: When we get married, I want to share all your worries, troubles and lighten your burden. Boy: It's very kind of you, darling, But I don't have any worries or troubles.
Girl: Well that's because we aren't married yet.

Stress Reliever #3

Son: Mom, when I was on the bus with Dad this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.
Mom: Well, you have done the right thing.
Son: But mum, I was sitting on daddy's lap.

Stress Reliever #4

Wife to husband: "What's your excuse for coming home at this time of the night?"
Husband to wife: "Golfing with friends, my dear."
Wife to husband: "What? At 2 am?!"
Husband to wife: "Yes, We used 'night clubs.' "

Stress Reliever #5

Father to son after exam: "let me see your report card."
Son: "My friend just borrowed it. He wants to scare his parents."

Stress Reliever #6

A teacher asked her class for sentences using the word "beans".
"My father grows beans," said one student.
"My father cooks beans," said another.
Then little Johnny spoke up: "We are all human beans."


Stress Reliever #7

Interviewer to Millionaire: "To whom do you owe your success as a millionaire to?"
Millionaire: "I owe everything to my wife."
Interviewer: "Wow, she must be some woman. What were you before you married her?" Millionaire: "A Billionaire"

Stress Reliever #8

Girl to her boyfriend: One kiss and I'll be yours forever.
The guy replies: Thanks for the warning.

Stress Reliever #9

Doctor to his lady patient: You look terribly weak and exhausted! Are you having your meals three times a day as I have advised?
Lady replied: Doctor, I thought you said three males a day!


Stress Reliever #10

A husband was asked: Do you talk to your wife after sex?
He replied: Depends, if I can find a phone.

Stress Reliever #11

Why did they stop printing PAMELA ANDERSON stamps in the U.S.?
Answer: Because people started licking the wrong side.

Stress Reliever #12

A wife asked her husband: What do you like most in me - my pretty face or my sexy body?
He looked at her from head to toe and replied: I like your sense of humour.


LOL....hahah....

i should just eat panadol and go to sleep... but i can't...........

u cheer me up =)

Sunday, July 02, 2006

sian liao.... high fever now..... maybe is because of todae OTC course day lor.... already having fever for the past few days le... then todae is such a hot hot day lor.... todae duty group, early in the morning go there shift chairs from lecture room and from hall also ..... quite tiring lor....

basically todae quite a lot of things that happened la... also got things that made me mad .... haha.... but like what they said.... da ren bu ji xiao ren guo ....hmm....

LOL....sian....feeling so sick....

i'm happie when u are happie =)

Saturday, July 01, 2006

wa...todae weather very very very hot lor.... sian....

think my cough worsen liao....todae keep coughing lor... then some more i still have fever lor... haiz....

Bio practical coming le....and i only studied 1/10 of it lor... 70% of the qns will be from the topics " bones ".... hmmm.... and it is difficult to memorize it... lots of my brain cells will be killed just by studying this lor...hmm....

haiz....

seeing u smile makes me happie =)