sunny day lor...haha...i noe...it's lame....-.-'''

todae got presenatation...haha.... and i present 1/2 of the topics to the class... hehe.. dunnoe whether they understand ma...LOL....present on the mynamar culture ... lucky got script to refer to, if not i also dunnoe how to pronounce the chim chim words...haha....

then i brought i wrong lecture notes to sch...cos i thought this wk is wk 8, last wk of sch le ma...haha...but is wk 7...still got 1 more week of sch .... so blur of me lor...

during tutorial lesson, our lecturer said something that made everybody wished that there are no holidays lor... she said that all the not so important projects that she din asked us to do now, she will give us to do during the holidays...and after holidays, we have to present all of them to the class...

oh my gosh !!!! that is a lot ....according to what she listed down....i'm going to faint liao...and those projects are not easy to do lor...requires lots and lots of planning and thinking...haix....june holidays gone liao... =(

i am soooo angry todae lor...my sub grp 1 , are all also angry and irritated with this particular person.... she is in my grp and during grp discussions, meeting, projects works, she din turned up, despite us asking her to come and join us in the library or the computer labs...

when we asked her, she usually gave the ans, "oh, i have to go eat lunch now" or " i got to meet my friends from other grp to pass her some things"... we were like....-.-''' we usually have our grp meeting on our 2nd break of the day, so we can eat our lunch during the 1st break...but she likes to do the opposite of us..eat lunch during 2nd break...

actually we dun mind de...we asked her to come find us when she finish eating... but she dun... and it is very difficult for us to find her also...even though she had a hp, she dun ans the call lor.... so it is damn irritating...

and todae...when we asked her present ... she gave us an ans that made us so mad...argHH!!!!!!...she said, " i present a lot of times already , i dun want ." .... when the fact is that she only present 1/10 times only lor.... anyhow say... in the end, i and my other friend went up and present lor...

asked her do things, she dun want... call her come for grp discussion also dun want.. dun noe what is on her mind lor... ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel better after venting it all out here...sorry that u all have to read this boring entry... haha....=)

hmm....todae dun have OTC meeting...cancel liao...postpone to friday le.... even worse...i finish sch at 6pm...dunnoe wad time it is going to start lor... but wadever it is, think i'm going to be late la.... wad to do??....

feeling quite warm now...the weather is so HOT !!!... =p

yeas...sch start at 10am tmr...waahhaha....can sleep longer ... but also dun make any difference ..kk...i'm contradicting myself... LOL

i made the correct decision

YOU ARE THE BEST !!!

todae is a very tiring day... my eyes are going to close liao... zzZ...

skipped one sociology lecture todae...cos the attendance system spoil ma..then we just tap our cards and go to library and chit chat...hahah....heard that the lecture theatre is only 3/4 full...so a lot of ppl also skipped the lecture ...haha... it is really boring la...

but next wednesday got sociology test...after sch , start at 3pm... hmm...he gave us some tips...luckily my friends got tell us wad it is..haha...LOL...

hmm...

holidays are going to be here soon..muhahah!!! next friday would be the last day of sch for the poly students...yeas....hahah....but welcoming me the start of the holiday will be this year training camp...haha...ya...

LOL....

tmr is another long long day for me... got to rush down to changi general hospital for my sponsership interview after sch...then after that got to go down to hq for the OTC briefing...haiz... so packed...got to rush here and there lor...

I AM SO SO TIRED >>> YAWNS .....

u are the BEST!!!

hello ppl....haha....=)

todae is a long day in sch lor...haha.... learnt oral feeding during our clinical lab lessons...woo...it's so fun ...haha... then we fed each other in bed with porridge... hmm...difficult to eat when lying down on the bed ....know how the patient felt when they had to eat lying down...

LOL....

had a very bad headache during my elective lesson....can't even pay attention to the lecturer... totally no mood at all...

after went bugis de seoul garden and eat..hmm...talked and laughed very loudly lor... but ....who cares anyway...haha...then took lots of pictures... very very fun ...=)ate till we were going to explode...haha....so full !!!... hmm...

oh man...tmr got presentation on "culture"....going to have to talk a lot liao...haha... hope everything will go smoothly... wish me luck !!! =)

haiz....so tired....

can money drop from the sky???

nvm la...i can't be bothered with u ....

haiz....so tired le... you are the best !!!!

today is a rainy day..

went to my grandma hse in the morning for the dumpling festival...yum yum... very delicious lor...hahah...cannot resist nice food....LOL... wa....rain so heavily lor...reach there le ,i'm drench liao...*ah chooo!!*

finished lunch liao...then i go out watch movie le...hehe...watched DA VINCI CODE ... hmm..quite a nice movie...a bit confusing at first ... but later part think i noe wad they doing le...haha....hmm...show last for about 2 hr plus like that... then got some parts to me is a bit disgusting la... no wonder they rated the show NC16 la...

haha...the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE is here...can go shop shop liao...haha... provided i have money lor... =)

hmm....feel like sleeping now...but cannot...haiz....

tmr sch starts at 11am ... at least no need to wake up so early... can sleep more... zzZ....

trust... this word meant a lot to everybody... trust is a very important thing. whether in friendship, relationship with bf/gf and family or anybody, it played an important role... if u dun trust that person, it is difficult to confide or share secrets with them... you will be afraid that once u tell that person, the next moment someone else will noe about it...

and it is difficult to have a relationship with no trust in it... basically there is nthing to talk about between the two of you...

what if you put too much trust on that person and that person betray you?? or that person had done something that is wrong and kept it from you.... you wun feel good rite??....

i once had been betrayed by a friend of mine...told her a lot of things and in the end she betrayed me and told all the things that i told her to someone whom i'm not on good terms with... and she still pretend that nthing had happend... but luckily i noe is her then i stopped confiding into her...

since then i'm careful in whom i want to confide in.... choose the correct words to say... but then now there is one person who i so called trust made me feel so disappointed...haiz....

woo....feeling so sleepy now...

dun try to hide wadever u are doing...it is no use de...u break the trust... i hate you...

oh ya... GOOD LUCK TO THOSE TAKING 'O' LEVEL MOTHER TONGUE TMR... all the best...=) JIA YOU !!!

hmm..gotta go sleep liao... nitez... happy...YOU ARE THE BEST ....=)

sleepy me....LOL

SICK!!!!

woke up in the morning with a slight fever lor... haiz...maybe due to the lack of sleep ba...

overslept in the morning.. so supposed to wake up at 7.30am but ended up at 9am... LOL...went to bank to draw money for my OTC course...haiz... $45 borrowed from my sis...pathetic rite?? cannot blame la...this month i really broke liao.... =(

SIAN !!!!!

wa...todae i like so busy like that lor...a lot ppl keep calling me lor...hahah.... then have to keep answering and also smsing... LOL... k.. i'm being lame...

then just now at 8 plus like that went to meet yong qing and mdm yang zhen .. they pass me the money then i got to go down to hq tmr to give ... and the thing is yq ,was late ...LOL..waited for arnd half an hour... haha.. but nvm la... =) mdm yang zhen came first then she got to go le..so waited for yq... then sit down and chit chat till 9 plus like that...went home le...

came home and went online le... cos the support officer say there is smth wrong with the document that i send her... so i must recheck the entire camp directory of 151 ppl.... haiz.... sad...

very stressed up... some more still got to study for test lor...haiz..... =(

how come i still cannot finalize the camp strength ??? and the teams that they are in??? y, y , y???

sian....

going to have dark rings under my eyes liao... LOL...

humph.... dun think that we dun noe what is going on...we are not stupid... we noe when things are amiss.... so dun try to bluff us by saying nothing had happened... we wun believe you... ***k....

wooo.... feeling very happie todae lor.... =)

eyes half closing but i am still staring at the computer ... LOL... u are the best !!!

here i'm to blog... LOL...

had TWO presentation todae... and before that had a headache... hmm... think is cos i too stressed up liao... luckily the presentation was still okay lor...haha... talked about caring concepts and " should we leave our sick grandparents in the nursing homes when we dun want to quit our jobs" ... hmm..had quite a lot to talk about for that topic lor...

next week is another busy busy week.... going to have THREE presentation... OMG !! again?? also got a quiz , but dunnoe on which day... then going to have life science test .... sian... haven even study yet .. and it is quite a lot lor... cos the lecturer teach quite fast...

TEST TEST AND MORE TEST !!!!!!

todae the secondary and primary sch have their 1 month sch holiday le... while we poly students still have another two more weeks to go through.. but those 2 weeks are basically just test and more tests lor... gonna have 2 weeks break only... and after that, when sch reopen is another few weeks of exams le... haiz... so many things to do...

DAMN BUSY AND SO TIRED !!!!!

haiz...haven finish my camp de admin things... a lot leh... how to finish when i still have to study also???

ARGHHHH !!!!

so tired.. this few days not enough sleep lor... going to become a panda le... and some more i think i got short term memory liao... things that ppl said to me , the next moment i forget liao... haha.... then got to ask them again lor... so ma lu... like my mummy ask me go down buy smth, then when i reach the 1st floor, i forgot what she want me to buy , then have to go up and ask her again... got a scolding from her too... LOL.... maybe is the lack of sleep ....

going to work hard these few weeks....

STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY

hmmm....oh ya...next monday is Mother Tongue 'O' Level Exam... still rmb last year when i'm sitting in the hall doing the exam papers ...LOL...

TO ALL : just relax urself , dun give urself too much stress , and put in your best effort for this paper and get over with it .... JIA YOU !!!

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING THE MOTHER TONGUE 'O' LEVEL PAPER ON MONDAY !!! GOOD LUCK =)

dun think that by pretending nothing has ever happened will make us not hate you... go think about it.... damn it la...

LOL.... I"M SO TIRED !!!!

******YAWNS****** you are the best !! =)

hmm...quite tired la...yawns...

todae long day lor...study and study... there is a presentation tmr and i have not even started to do powerpoint slides ....shit la... my group members are going to kill me !!! tmr sch end at 6pm leh... haha...sian....

恋 ( lyrics, by guang liang )

不愿承认

不愿面对

我真的爱你很深很深

一个笑容

一句话语

都让我心跳很快很快

每个思索

每个欲望

全被你占据很满很满

无法平静

不想透露

因为爱你快乐很久很久

情人飞似在梦里

当一切都变的无理

情人为你而美丽

当你呼唤我的名字

情人默默的隐藏

当她知是一个错误

情人很久的以后

当一切被时间冲淡

不愿承认

不愿面对

我真的爱你很深很深

一个笑容一句话语

都让我心跳很快很快

每个思索

每个欲望

全被你占据很满很满

无法平静不想透露

因为爱你快乐很久很久

情人飞似在梦里

当一切都变的无理

情人为你而美丽

当你呼唤我的名字

情人默默的隐藏

当她知是一个错误

情人很久的以后

一切被时间冲淡

情人飞似在梦里

当一切都变的无理

情人为你而美丽

当你呼唤我的名字

情人默默的隐藏

当她知是一个错误

情人很久的以后

当一切被时间冲淡

我只会更爱你

haiz...i'm broke le... no money to pay for this and that.... some more camp coming le.. need to use money also... then otc course also need money... haiz....where to find??

can money drop from the sky????

sian lor....

i'm going CRAZY soon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH

it's all ur fault.. you shouldn't even have done all these things in the first place ... you broke the trust that i have for you... i'm going to hate you for what you have done... i may have misunderstood you and all these may not even have happened in the first place ... but dun even think that i will regain my trust for you... Once the trust is broken, it is difficult to trust the person again...

ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I"M SO DAMN STRESSED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAN'T EVEN HAVE A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm... yesterdae got zone meeting...talk about some things lor... reach home at arnd 11.40pm like that... very tired lor... yawns...

todae i really damn tired liao...fell asleep in the first lecture.... LOL... cannot concentrate la.... too many things on my mind ....

got my nursing uniform ytd... hehe...looks weird on me leh...dunnoe la...

haiz....i got a lot of things to do... one day 24hrs is not enough for me lor.... can't even finish my things lor...

got a presentation to prepare for .... and i am suppose to do the powerpoint slides for my grp lor...due on thurs... and i haven start yet.... sian...

many things are undone...how???

as days goes by, i think i'm going to hate you more.... dun ask mi y.... i have no idea,
just had that feeling... but tell me i'm wrong , that u are not that kind of person... i dun like to do things against my wish.....

LOL...slept at 3am i the morning and woke up at 5am... hmm..waked to sch todae as the early bus is at 6am on sunday..and i'm meeting them for breakfast at 6am... a very nice walk to sch lor...so cooling... and so quiet de... took mi arnd half an hour to reach ba...cos i walk very slow...

hmm...then reach kalang there le for big walk...got a lot of ppl lor... then started our 10km walk... hehe... keep cheering lor...very very fun....then a lot of ppl look at us when we cheered ....haha...

then me, angeline and mdm xu lead lor...then is always the three of us who lead the cheers...haha...

then now i no more voice le...throat damn pain now..talking also very difficult for me lor...lucky the next few days no presentation lor.. if not i cannot talk loudly liao... haiz... ouch...it really hurts a lot...

after big walk then go back sch...then go genki sushi and settle our lunch...sat there chit chat for quite a long time lor....

hehe....we go play pool .... few weeks din play le...still quite okie ba... haha

went to mac for dinner ....then go home le....

i am sooo tired now lor....throat also very very pain...swallow saliva also pain... sian liao lor...

i'm starting to hate you now...dun force me do that... that's not what i wish to do ...

feel like crying now...

i'm feeling so helpless, i really dunnoe wad to do....

a lot of things are on my mind, and they are big problems....

haiz...how???

**sob sob**

sch starts at 1pm todae... but i'm still got not enough sleep lor... cos slept at 3 plus in the morning the nite before ....hmm....crazy me..... =D

clinical lab lesson was so damn funny todae.... the whole class including the lecturer also laugh till we can't laugh anymore le...LOL... haha... she taught us how to do bed bathing todae... on a manikin( dummY) of cos.... then when took off the shirt , everybody started laughing, they say the body looks nice... -.-''' then taught us how to clean, using water and soap all this...

then here comes the very very funny part... when she took off *his* pants... she purposely did it in a very slow motion, then got 1 girl just snatched the pants and stripped it off.... hahaha.... all laughed like crazy ppl... =)

then she say is very impt to clean the *ahem , ahem * part lor... u all shld noe wad i mean rite?? haha... then someone go and touch ...LOL.... shall not go on elaborating le, cos the later part is censored...muhaha....

woo...wad a crazy class i'm in lor... but i still LOVE this class so much ....

sian...sch starts at 8am tmr... arghhh.....got to wake up so early.... lack of slp again... and if it end early then i dun mind lor... but it end at 6 pm !!!

this week very very busy...... got to do my projects, presentation and also my st john things... everyday so packed....

saturday got JNCO briefing, then sun got big walk.... followed by monday got zone meeting then training resumed on tuesday !!!!!!! four days in a row got st john activities , very packed schedule....

got to study my sociology and life science le.... test coming up in week 7 ... and i dun even have the time to go and study... but think i still can managed life science.. it's sociology that that i'm worrying about...it is quite chim and got a lot of definitions in it....haiz....why is it so difficult.....

but i'm going to work hard for it... wanna get gd results for all tests.... so i'm going to find time to study in my very packed schedule, even if it means studying till 3, 4 am in the morning....

everyday, mummy will be like, " girl ar, sleep early, everyday sleep at 1 or 2 plus in the morning not good for ur health leh....later u sick how??? .... must go and sleep early hor "

it's not that i dun want to sleep early lor... who wants to spend their sleeping time doing their tutorial homeworks??? bet no one.... but i really got a lot of things to do that i have to end up sleeping at such late hours....

i also dun want to be sick ma.... who wants???.... while i'm typing this entry, keep sneezing lor...dun noe who talking bad about me ar?? hahaha.... but i think i'm coming down with flu liao.... sian....

just recovered from headache and now FLU??? what is this man.... think is i really lack of sleep that i got flu.... LOL....

really enjoyed the times when we are together ... you made me so happie , you made me laugh... and i really can dun think of the problems when i'm with u .... made me smile when i'm down.... =) many many memories ya?? thanks.... haha... shld go out more often lor.... =D

约定

说好的三年不见面

用我们的爱把时间留住

你笑着说这是我们的考验

我们的约定

就这样三年又过了

我还是回到这个地方

闭上眼等你的出现

空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定

一辈子幸福的约定

为你写的那首歌

他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定

我比以前还更爱你了

连那风都笑我了

我想他会告诉你的

我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了

我还是回到这个地方

闭上眼等你的出现

空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定

一辈子幸福的约定

为你写的那首歌

他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定

我比以前还更爱你了

连那风都笑我了

我想他会告诉你的

你会记得我们的约定

听着风我也笑了

他一定会告诉你的

我更爱你了

very very nice song lor...

to view the chinese words above, please go to ur tools box above,go view, click on it and choose encoding, unicode (UTF-8), sorry ar cos u are unable 2 right click in my blog...LOL...

todae is such a long post lor....haha..... =)

hmmm...look at the time now....1 am in the morning ....and i'm still here when i am supposed to be in my la la land, dreaming of our memories...haha... 4 hr plus later, going to wake and prepare to go sch liao lor....

gosh....think i better go catch my 4hr of precious sleep, (better than nthing) ....LOL....

i cut my hair le...haha....but looks a bit weird leh...haha.. =)

i was so sleepy todae that i fell asleep in the first lecture of the day...LOL.... anyway the lecturer speak so slow that everybody cannot take it liao...so all started talking among themselves and not listening to the lecture...

we are bad students rite?? haha.. naughty me .... =)

rehearse our role play todae....for presenation on the week 7 .... was very funny ... all kept laughing, then cannot say the lines properly... hehe..=) hmm...must memorise the lines that each of us are supposed to say ... i played the role of a nurse in the play ...

after sch, went shop shop with my friends... bought a pair of shoes and shorts... aww...heart pain.... my money gone liao..... haha

tmr got to go for junco meeting after sch.... hmm....

LOL...this friday, the ITE students no need go sch leh... cos they say on the 6th May 2006 is the election day, a public holiday, then they bring it to the week days... so this fri they no need go sch.... some secondary schools also no need to go sch on wednesday leh.... then we all so happie, thought poly students also no need go sch... but we were wrong !!!

us: ms joelle , this fri we no need to come sch rite??
ms joelle: huh?? ( give a blur look ) y??
us: becos of the election thing lor * told her the whole story*
ms joelle: i'll be teaching this fri, so that means u all must come sch... u all keep on dreaming that this fri is a holiday lor... haha....
us: what!! still must come sch ar?? sian...

we were all hoping that this fri is really a holiday for us... cos that day is a very long day... sch from 8 am to 6 pm lor.... that's y all of us hate friday ....

wad a disappointment lor...

aiyo, xing juan dun think too much la....dun look back, life still carry on =)

... dun noe why .... todae i kept laughing and laughing non - stop... haha... then my friends see i laugh, they also laugh for no reason ...haha... ppl though we crazy liao... * grins*

laughter a day, keeps the doctor away.. LOL... ( actually there's no such thing la)

hahaha..... now i also feel like laughing... LOL....think i going crazy soon ..=)

think i'm going to cut hair liao... cos the weather is so HOT ...

pity those who have lessons in the stuffy classroom ...haha....while i'm having lectures in the cooling lecture theatre.... i'm so bad, suan ppl ...

yes!! finally finish the particulars list for those JUNCO trainees le... haha.. spent quite a few days doing it ....hehe... now left with the camp directory to do .... this sat got JUNCO briefing at east view... some more need to wear full u , long time din wear le lor....

2 more weeks to my submittion of projects, presentation and many many tests ....... and i am not even half way done yet..... how how??? must study liao....

STRESS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

todae is MOTHER'S DAY !!!! haha =)

went to CRYSTAL JADE KITCHEN for our dinner... had to wait for arnd half an hour b4 we got our seats....there are soooo many ppl queuing up lor.... went in le... i'm already very hungry ...haha...then order food ... also had to wait for very long time b4 they serve the food.... by that time, i'm already going to faint from hunger le ( haha... kidding)...

the food there is really very very delicious ...yum yum... i had three bowls of rice... u can imagine how hungry i am...haha...when i told my dad that i still want another bowl of rice, he was like ...huh??.. are u sure....

me: daddy, i want one more bowl of rice
dad: u still not full ar??
me: no lar, i'm still hungry
dad: u shld come to crystal jade and eat everyday, then u can gain more weigh
me: haha...u pay for it lor...

hahahaha....no matter how much i eat , it is still very difficult for me to gain weigh de la...*grins*

LOL...when we walked out of the restaurant, there is still long line of ppl waiting to go in and eat...haha...guess we were lucky that we came early and eat ... =)

hmm...tmr is a start of a new week le...haha... but monday sch hours are very long , till 7pm in the evening lor... by that time, very tired le...

but nvm, i shall perserve on... i still got a long long way to go..... =)

you can fall in love in an instant. it is letting go that takes time .

LOL...nthing much about todae ba...

hmm..tmr is MOTHER'S DAY le...haha....wonderinG where we going to eat?? haha... greedy me( only noe how to eat) wahaha...=)

hmm...this song is titled Crying In The Rain... look at the lyrics

song lyrics

i'll never let you see
the way my broken heart is hurting me
i've got my pride and i know how to hide
all my sorrow and pain
i'll do my crying in the rain

if i wait for cloudy skies
you won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
you'll never know that i still love you so
though the heartaches remain
i'll do my crying in the rain

raindrops falling from the heaven
could never wash away my misery
but since we are not together
i'll look for stormy weather
to hide these tears
i'll hopr you never see

someday when my crying's done
i'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
but till then
i'll do my crying in the rain
i'll do my crying in the rain
i'll do my crying in the rain

these few days, i'm soooooo tired.. just can't get enough of sleep... think this week i seriously LACK of sleep le... everyday only sleep a few hours then wake up and go school.......arghhhh.... going to become a panda soon ...haha...=)

" I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but i would like to be something to someone "

hmm... todae is public holiday, so no sch...then dun feel like going out lor.... so stay at home and do my stuffs...

time really flew so quickly. so fast and i'm already in polytechnic le. thought back to the days in my secondary school life, it was fun, lively and so exciting !! oh man, i really MISS my sec sch life so badly. and i still remember that time when all of us are still in sec 4 , our mindset was ," yeas, after O levels , we dun have to come back to this stupid sch 'ev ' le '' ...

i bet everybody is regretting what they have said .

sec sch life can say is my turning point in my life. a lot of things happen during that 4 years. words cannot express what i have been through . LOL .

not that i'm saying poly life is not good.. hmm...i have only been studying for ...less than a month in nyp... still getting to know more about my friends , and my sch... till now, to me is still a bit boring la...LOL...

nowadays, only sch and projects and presenation and tutorials and sjab

so BUSY

my brain is now full of human body's parts, chemical formula , DNA , genes , nursing legal document, communication to the patient , taking blood pressure and many many more.... got to take time to digest all this information ....

where is the shoulder and the hug that i need so badly???

"sometimes i wish i could fast forward time, just to see if in the end it's all worth it "

lol....todae starts sch at 1pm...slept till 10 plus in the morninG..and i still feel like going back to slp...haha... then had 2 hrs de lab lesson till 3pm...hmm...then is break time, till 4pm... is bio sci de lecture...

everybody was waiting in the lecture room for arnd half an hour and were wondering where is the lecturer....then a guy came into the room...we thought he was the lecturer ...but guess wad he said??

guy: ahem...class....todae...lesson...is cancelled... you all are free to go!!!

cheers sounded in the room lor...haha....but then we were like...can't u tell us earlier
?? then we all could go home at 3pm le...no need to waste our time in sch lor... -.-'''

this few days time table a bit weird leh...wednesday only 1 hr of sch...then todae 2 hr of sch only...haha... kk...i noe a bit lame la....

tmr is PUBLIC HOLIDAY !!!... yea!! no sch .... can slack at home le...haha.... =)

but got a lot of unfinished stuffs waiting for me to do... they are missing me so badly that i couldn't even leave them alone for 1 minute ...haha.....

LOL...rubbish coming out of my mouth le....maybe cos now is 1 plus in the morning le ... haha....

u dun understand how it feels like...

tears are words the heart cannot express

todae went to sch for 1hr only ... frm 11am to 12pm... cos only got 1hr de lesson ma... haha...actually all planned not to go de...but the lesson is on legal documentation
.... very impt...so no choice got to go.... hehe..todae's lecture theatre only 3/4 full .... can see that a lot of ppl skip lecture...haha....

after sch then go home le...eat lunch , then do smth ... then eat again... haha...hungry la... cannot blame lor..haha....after that i go slp ...hehe... slp frm 3pm to 7pm... then ate my dinner ....haha...

tmr start sch at 1pm... yippie... haha...=).... then end at 5pm .... hmmm... that's gd lor... then i no need to wake up so early le...

lots and lots of projects and presentations to be done... some are even due by week 7...and now is already week 4, going to week 5 ....omg....how are we ever going to finish it on time ???

some more got to do my st john admin stuffs for this coming June camp... which is quite a lot cos is a combined camp ma.....

feeling quite stress la...

sch works + sjab works = headaches

feeling very sleepy now even though i slept for 4 hrs in the afternoon lor... hmm... going to reach 0000hrs le... and i'm still sitting in front of the computer.... haiz ...

yesterdae chalet was quite fun...haha

haPpie 21st b'dae, siR jian Wen !!! =)

hehe..lets update about ytd ....

went to meet yq they all and we took bus 17 to downtown east...reach le...then like a bit early, so went to play pool...haha.... the facilities there was like so ....arghh... i rather play at pavillion lor...haha.....


( lol...yq starting the game...haha...nice pose???)

haha..then play till arnd 7.30pm like that then we walk to the chalet le....

paid $1 for the entrance fees...haha.....

then reach le.... i was like wa.....there are A LOT of ppl there....haha....then saw sir pia tat, sir yz,alvin ,you guang , mdm wei xia and a lot more....hehe.... then we sit down talk nonsense....haha.....

then was eatinG time...haha....went to take food...haha...was quite yummy... then i keep laughing cos they keep saying funny things ma.... hmmm...after that... yq and sir james came up with a cup of ....( i also dunnoe how to say)... inside got a lot of things la....lets see, syrup water mixed with curry , potato , marshmellow, mentos and a lot more...muhaha....sounds disgusting rite??? ....haha...wonder whether they got drink ma....

hmmm...after that, went into the room with hui mei, joyce and mdm wei xia...haha.... played poker cards inside....but din gamble la...hahah....quite fun lor...

(hmm...hps...mdm wei xia, mine, joyce)

haha..was quite bored in the room...so took this lame photo...haha.....

then it's time to cut cake le....hehe...went ouside...everybody was crowding arnd the cake lor...cannot even c...so had to stand on the bench ....haha..... then they all keep disturbing yq...then all had to shhh!!!! to ask them keep quiet....

lol...then sing b'dae song...b4 that took lots of pics...haha....

then went back into the room and sit...cos there got air con ma...haha....some more the weather is so hot.... then stayed till about 11 plus then go home le....took a cab home...haha....

was very tired in sch todae....keep wanting to fall asleep ...haha.....the todae sch end at 6pm like that....elective so quite interesting....it is like a revision for our bio sci module lor...cos my elective subject is " life sciences" ma...haha....

lots of sch work to be done...now plus st john stuffs....omg...that's a lot.....

e first sound that i heard this morning was " thanks for voting for the PAP, you have made the correct choice " , "xie xie ni tou piao gei ren ming xing dong dang , xie xie da jia" ... wahaha.. disturb my beauty sleep lor...haha...

hmmm....later going to sir jian wen chalet ...haha..to celebrate his 21st b'dae...haha.. shall update more when i get back ....

i hate the feeling of being LOST ....

what is LOVE ??

woo..election day todae ...but i no need to vote, cos still underage ...haha... kk...i'm talking rubbish ...haha...

hmm...woke up at 11 plus todae..haha....i'm like a pig lor...cannot blame la...i very tired ma...but after that i still feeling sleepy ...haha.... todae stay at home and rot lor... sian....

did not touch any sch work or tutorial hw ...wanted to relax .... but going to work hard and try to finish all my work ...maybe on monday??..haha...still want to slack lor....=)

feeling quite sleepy now but dun want to go slp ...cos i want to noe the election results ma....

hmmm....thoughts and memories keep flashing through my mind ... wanted to go back to the times when we all are are so carefree , where we all joke around and nothing seems to bother us ... haha...

nonsense all coming out of my mouth ....in a half sleeping mode le....haha....

>-- let the rain wash away the pain --<

simply hate todae time table.... so draggy de.... made us waste our precious time in sch lor... wanna noe how todae time table looks like??

8am - 9am ( lab lesson)
9am - 10am (break)
10am - 11am ( lecture)
11am to 12pm ( break)
12pm - 1pm ( lecture)
1pm - 2pm (break )
2pm - 3pm ( lecture)
3pm - 4pm ( break)
4pm - 5pm (lecture)
5pm - 6pm (lecture)

in between so many break time.. not that it is not good to have, but too many of it will just simply waste our time in sch....

frm nxt mon on, sch will end at 7pm...cos of our elective subject...3 hr each lesson lor... will last for two mths.... luckily is only on monday , if i have to finish sch everyday at 7pm, i think i will go crazy ...lol...hahah.....=)

Song lyrics( Kiss me Goodbye )

How long has it been
since u held me near?
How long will it be till
I have you right here?
You say that it hurts
I can't disagree
But how can I hold onto someone who's leaving me?
And i says i'm gonna be OK
i tell him things are getting busier these days
he tell me things will be much easier someday
And i say i'm gonna be alright
You know how much
I miss him in my life
You know how much I'm missing him deep inside
Goodbye yesterday,
I see my dreams walking away
And he looks just like he did before
Except he don't love me
he don't love me amymore
u could shake my hand
or u could kiss me goodbye
But I just might break down
looking in your eyes
So what happens next
do I listen to my mind or heart?
I don't know where to start
feeling alright again...

feeling much better todae le... though still got headache, cough and flu... but it is getting better le =)...( finally)...haha..

yippie ....tmr is saturday ...can sleep longer le...haha....no need wake up so early .... =)....this whole wk i got not enough slp lor...everydae slp so late...haha... sat and sun are the best....=)....

hmm...todae just no mood for sch...all becos of the headache and flu ........

when can i recover ???? * shrug *

tmr sch starts at 8am in the morninG....sian...got to wake up sooo early lor.... and it ends so late ...at 6pm.... dots....

nowadays every nite do sch work until 12 plus going to 1 am.... then go slp ...omg.... hope i wun become a panda...haha....slp for a few hrs then have to wake up le.... find it hard to wake up in the early morning...haha...

and i cannot afford to be late...haha.. my sch is at yio chu kang...imagine being late and have to rush all the way down...by the time reach there, lesson over le lor... haha...

hmm...more and more sch work and tutorials needed to be complete and i am not even halfway through yet..omg... even though i'm doing it everyday , i just can't seems to finish it.... oh no.... how?? ....

todae is such a waste of time in sch.... sch starts at 9am todae... but the lecturer did not turn up, so no class...then 10am to 1pm is our break time.. so we spent 4 hrs in sch doing nthing....

supposedly, there is a tutorial from 1 pm to 2 pm... but the lecturer also din turn up...arghhhh.....so we got another 1 hr of doing nthing....-.-''' all of us felt like slping le lor....so sian...then waited till 2 pm for another tutorial... which ended at 3pm...

wasted 5 hrs of our precious time in sch lor....

made me wake up so early in the morning but attended lesson at 2pm in the AFTERNOON... sian...shldn't have gone to sch todae if i noe that e lecturers are not going to come for lessons...haha...

veri stupid day lor...

Oooo...presentations and more presentations are coming.... hmm...going to be busy le...haha....hopefully it is not that difficult ...haha....

hmm...the bio science module is getiing more interesting... =)

terrible day in sch too... cos of my headache + fever + flu + cough .... made me no mood ....sian....

Gosh...wad a miserable day....and a boring sch day too....haiz...

i'm sick

headache + fever + flu + cough....

ARGHHHHHHH.............

hmmm...read this...it is very touching...think about wad it means....

i have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl.

Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?I asked.
I cannot. Why ? You need to study at home ? I felt disappointment grabbing me.
No. I am going to meet a friend.

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word love only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say I love you before. To us, there were not any anniversaries at all. He did not say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days. 200days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I do not know why.

Then one day.

Me: Um, Jin, I
Jin: What , do not drag , just say
Me: I love you.
Jin: you . um , just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my three words and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many . Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But , lunch passed, dinner passed , and soon the sky was dark . he still did not call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin
Jin: Here , take this , Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What is this
Jin: I did not give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I am going home now, bye.
Me: Wait , wait . Do you know what today is
Jin: Today ? Huh ? I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted . Wait .
Jin: You have something to say
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me
Jin: What
Me: Tell me

i put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. I do not want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else. That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb and I collapsed to the ground. He did not want to say it easily . How could he , I felt that . Maybe he is not the right guy for me . After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He did not call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That is how those dolls piled up in my room , everyday . After a month, I got myself together and went to school.

But what made the pain resurface was that . I saw him on a street with another girl . He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll . I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell . Why did he gave these to me . Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls . In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that it is going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came . I could not help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as .
Me: I do not need it.
Jin: What , why , I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I do not need this doll, I do not need it anymore . I do not want to see a person like you again . I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. I am sorry . He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll

Me: You stupid, Why are you picking up the doll? ! Just throw it away !!! But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then . Honk !!! Honk !!! With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
Jin ! Move ! Move away ! I shouted . But he did not hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. Jin, move ! HONK !!! Boom ! That sound, so terrifying.That is how he went away from me. That is how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him .

And after spending two months like a crazy person . I took out the dolls . Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days when we were in love . One , two , three .That was how I started to count the dolls . Four hundred and eighty four . four hundred and eighty five . It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly I love you, I love you , I dropped the dolls,shocked. I love you ?? I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach. I love you .. I love you .. It cannot be ! I pressed all the dolls stomach as it piled on the side. I love you .. I love you .. I love you .. Those words came out non-stop. I love you . Why didn’t I realize that . That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why din i realize that he love me this much . I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much

Jo , Do you know what today is ? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is ? I could not say I love you . Um , since I was too shy . If you forgive me and take this doll , I will say that I love you everyday , till I die , Jo , I love you

The tears came flowing out of me. Why ? Why ? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now ? He cannot be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute

For that , and for that reason , to me , it became courage , to live a beautiful life

a very sad love story...i cried when i read it...