monday got exam lor...some more important de...and i HAVEN even study yet lorx... hope tmr got time after i come back from otc to study.... haiz...
so many things have happened.....
i find that the things that u do and say contradict urself.... u said u are disappointed in us... but i'm equally disappointed in u too.. u are not the one that i noe le... maybe i dun really understand u ba... u may say that i'm talking rubbish... dun like me... or wadsoever....is not that i want to zhen dui ni... that's just how i feel ....i dunnoe wad to say le.... haiz....
hmm...feeling stressed lor.... got damn lot of things to do....sch de...sjab de.... that's enough to keep me busy le lorx... haiz... think my committment level is going to drop le... cos attachment coming liao... then have to go hospital everydae ..... hmm.... but will still try my best to finish all stuffs that i'm supposed to do lorx....
sch projects also drive me crazy lor... year 1 only... then so many projects to do le.... year 2 and 3 gonna to have more le lor.... and time limit for the upcoming big project is..... 1 week lor... and some more that week got exams leh... then if must do.... got to do at night liao... LOL.... sleeping time gone again.... sad....
now i'm like an owl lor... sleep in the morning..(during lectures)...so bad of me rite?? haha....then do work at night.... LOL... hmm...
seems like i got no mood to do anything...no mood to study...[but no choice, have to] ....no mood to go anywhere..... no mood to do this and that.... wonder wad the heck is wrong with me la....
suddenly....i feel like giving up everything... seriously...it's everything.... i dun want to care about anything.... i just dun feel like carrying on le.... i'm tired... hope that feeling will go away.... =(
anyway...thanks for being so concern...i really appreciate....u sort of make things a liitle better for me ba... thanx....
that feeling of uncertainty is here......i dunnoe wad to do.... the way u treat me... and the things that u said... hmm.... nvm.... hmmm....
feel that i'm such a failure lor... everything also.... haiz.... maybe i haven found my motivation ba... also dunnoe wad am i thinking lor... seems like .................. nvm....
have i changed???
this post very long.... just my thoughts.... if u find that i'm talking nonsense...then i got no choice....cos that's how i feel..... hmm.....
todae got games day lor...haha...this year held at ev....LOL...then early in the morning went to meet them for the 'so call' breakfast....haha.... wa...very busy lor... but not as busy as yq and alan...u guys did a great job....=) ... i was the one who is coordinating all the games results.... LOL.... suntan under the sun from morning to afternoon lor... until got a bit sunburn....haha...
then after that is snco entry exam le.... was the Duty Officer lor...appointed by Sir pia leong...hahaha.....then got to make sure things runs smoothly...everything finish by 1830 hrs like that.... thnen went coffee shop and eat... and the conversation that we all had were damn funny lor...and i dunnoe how many times i choke on my food le.. quite stupid rite???wahahah..... then all walked to 201...hehe...and went home le...
tmr still got OTC course sia...last course day le... then following week is exam day liao....got to do my first aid MOI lorx...and also study .... hope i got time to study for the theory exam.... haiz....why are things always not going the way that i want??
why
why
why
going to fall asleep any moment...but got to open my eyes....and finish wad i'm supposed to do lor.... haiz.....
wei shen me xiang ai de ren bu nen gou zai yi qi
thanx
smile and i'll smile
cos i care =)