slept at 3am this morning and woke up at 6 plus. feeling so sleepy. then went down for st john training. GAMES DAY was fun fun !! =) played captain ball and tug of war. well, not really play lar, cos im the refree. haha. but its fun !! the mood is there. =)

haha. my mind is still awake during the training. still know wad im talking and doing. if im too tired, nonsense will come of my mouth lar. LOL.



hmm. you people got to buck up le. not enough time left le. i dun wanna see the same results that i see in training todae. you all can do it. just whether you all want to put in the 101% effort anot. if you all are really determine about this, go all out and put in your 200% effort in this. & you will see the results that you all aim for.



went to coffee shop to eat. if i dun eat at that time, think i will have gastrics liao. so hungry can. haha. eat & chat. then walk to the bus stop. decided to walk to 201 with jas. on the way jas say to walk to simei then she go cgh there take bus home. LOL. then at 201 there, got accident. the car is stuck in the middle of road & there's a pool of blood on the floor. but no casualty. think sent to hospital le. & the traffic jam was like '' OMG '' , its damn long lar. stretch all the way behind. there are like 8 or 9 SBS buses stuck in the jam can. & ppl who's in taxi at that time, confirm taxi fare very high .

3rd accident that i saw in 2 weeks liao. the 1st two accident happen at my house the road there. heard the '' screeching '' sounds of the tyres & a loud ''bang'' & it happened le. haiz. must be careful when crossing road.



is A naive or innocent or wad?? cant A see that wadever B does or say is fake and playing with A feeling?? maybe like wad ppl say, love is blind. thats why wadever others say , A totally ignored it and A jollywell knows that B really did those things. wonder how in the world A will like B.



im now in the '' i feel im idiotic, dumb, stupid, pathetic, crazy, useless '' mood. dun ask me why cos i dunnoe. just feel that im really stupid & dumb to want to do those things. feeling pathetic?? hurr. no idea how to say it out. crazy?? yupps. feeling super crazy now. thinking of stuffs that i shldnt be thinking & that it will happen. hurr. & obviuosly im useless lar. dun even noe how to deal with my own emotions. perhaps being drunk seems to be a good idea.

blabbering those nonsensical things again.



chingay 07 is on tv now. but i dun feel like watching. nthing much also. every year seems the same to me. LOL.

maybe i will go sleep now. & it will be better.



wad happened is a past now. if i can walk out of the past, then xingjuan will be a happy girl.


see, im being dumb again.