drift away

had a very belated birthday celebration at town last night. dinner was at Astons and desserts at Heaven's Loft @ Orchard Central. Awesome view from the rooftop and its very breezy, nice place to chill and it closes at 2am in the morning! me likes :D



the ice cream taste damn goodddddddddddddddd !!





and caught this movie @ Plaza Sing.

seriously this movie is a must watch. damn touching and i went home with red & swollen eyes from crying.

had the thought in the morning that my hair looks cui.
hence decided to do something suicial in the afternoon.
and off i went to snip snip and snip it away.
and now, i miss my hair :((
GROW HAIR GROW !!

cause when i close my eyes and drift away, i think of you and everything's okay.

till the end

yesterday head down to EastView for CCA Orientation 2010. response was rather okay, missed the performance though. could see that lots of efforts was put into planning the entire event. had talks about the plans for year 2010 and was only home at 11.30pm.

this entire week was damn fucked up. be it work or other stuffs. the entire day at work yesterday was played upside down by this @#^@^$^#$ doctor. damn him. it was his mistake in the first place and he pushed the entire blame to me, scolded me up down left right. like wtf can. argued with him so many times in a day till im totally speechless by his words and actions. fuck.

seriously, some doctors just think that by studying 5 years in medical school, they are of a superior rank to us. true, their knowledge may be so much better than us but their practical skills? lousy i tell you. not that im that great also but at least i know what is basic respect and teamwork. but them? they think they can do stuffs on their own and dont require others help. FINE BY ME. go and complain to sister if he wants, i know im right and thats it.

wasnt in a good mood. AT ALL. its only the begining of the year and everything's in a mess. must go and pray and clear away all the suayness.

two is better than one

this entire week seems to be so drama.
lots of things happened with a mixed feeling.

have been grumbling to others that i really dont like females doctors. dont know why but i prefer male doctors instead! and the rest also agreed! the way female doctors does things is like so ... i dont know how to describe. its like male doctors can pick up minor details but well, not trying to stereotype here.

went town yesterday for some shopping but i ended up not buying anything at all! how can? i need to do CNY shopping before i get tied up by work and i hate last minute rushing about. but but ... 9 more days!

i tried to explain it to you.
i hate to see you this way but well, i know you need time.

a sudden siansation when all these issues came up together. im really tired of hearing these and that. wads done is already done. we can only continue to work hard. thats all.

cause everything you do and say, you know it takes my breath away.

deep down

im like whining to everybody about my back pain :((
but seriously its really damn freaking painful.
please please please please let it heal faster can?
and i hate to take meds so dont ask me to do so.

its monday again and well, doesnt makes a different to me cos whether its weekend or weekday i'll still be working as usual.

14 more days to payday. i cant wait. 25th faster come. my sis still tempt me to go online shopping somemore! urghhh. i should just go hide my ibanking device somewhere that i cant find it.

and GOODLUCK to those taking their O levels results today :D

the usual, where did it all go to?

as days goes by

i is in pain now. cant really stand straight.
even lying down dont make me feel any better at all :((
thats why i dont really like to do night shifts. except for the fact that there's more $$. but they always like to roster me to do nights.

at the age of 20, im already having back pain.
cant imagine 10 years later, i think my back will cui.
need many many days to get rid of the back pain :((

very pathetic. today is the 8th, 17 more days to payday. left with only 40bucks to survive on. how nice eh. dumb, very dumb of me.

without fail, i always look out for you online.

dumb dumb

lets see,
intubate 1 patient on 1st night.
packed 1 patient on 2nd night.

tonight better be a peaceful one. all the screamings and nonsense last night was a tad too much. lasted all the way from 10pm till 7am in the morning. 9hrs of hearing them screaming and babberling nonsense is no joke.

and my back is in terrible pain please :(( couldnt really stand straight and all the patients are like twice, thrice my weight. the strain that my back gets when i position and shift them. the pain is so bad that i wanna cry :((

3rd night shift tonight. a good night please. im totally drained already. off to my dreamland for now.

i tried to find you but you are nowhere in sight.

flashbacks

YAY. first night shift down. couldnt get peace for the entire night. patients were all screaming their heads off and some thinks that its fun to press the call bells every 5mins. by 4am, the hungry + tired me had no more energy to entertain them. SIGH.

just before we were about to end work, got one collapse case, intubated the patient. tried to do everything fast fast; hand pain, leg pain, back pain :(( dragged myself out of the hospital and back home to sleeeeepppppp.

cant believe im broke at this time of the month. really overspent too much during december. now im only left with a pathetic 80bucks to spend for the next 20 days before payday comes. damn upset can :((

second night shift tonight. must must must be good okay.

just once. just wanna have that feeling back again.

off to bed to sleeeeeeeeeppp.

anticipating

for the whole of last week, slept for less than 10hrs added up in total. totally deprived. those that i talked to will know why. practically dragging myself around in the ward, finding hard to concentrate on wadever im doing. urgghhh!

will be on night shift tonight, tmr and wednesday. how nice, will be totally deprived of sleep for this entire week again. shall see how im gonna survive this night shift tonight. please please please let it be good, no funny stuffs or wadsoever. *fingers crossed*

feels really empty right now. the past week had been good. always had a smile whenever i go, i'll always see it light up without fail. should go erase that thought out of my mind now.

shall go sleep now and wake up later for work. SIGHHHHH.

HAPPY 2010

HAPPY 2010 EVERYONE :D

2009 has indeed been a year full of ups and downs for me. not really a smooth sailing year for me. its also a year that i shed the most tears i think. well, not forgetting the happy moments that i had too. everything's definitely memorable for me, be it good or bad. lessons learnt in yr 2008 but yet i made the same mistakes over and over again.

looking through my entire year 09 blog posts, brings back lots of memories.

to summarize Year 2009:

January
> ended my 3mths of PRCP.
> friendships got really strained with a few others.
Feburary
> met someone, from friends to lovers and back to friends again.
> took up part time job @ korean restaurant.
March
> celebrated grandma's 87th bdae.
April
> started my work in CGH as a Staff Nurse.
May
> got my own Canon Camera.
> graduated from NYP with a diploma in Nursing. got into director's list too.
> took part in Spore Passion Run 10km marathon.
> send Sarmila back to Nepal
June
> H1N1 war in the hospital, mad busy.
August
> celebrated Nation's 44th bdae at Spore Flyer
September
> took part in Yellow Ribbon Prison Run 10km.
> got my new love, E71. still loving it.
October
>celebrated mooncake festival with the usual sjab ppl
> got H1N1 positive, 10days of MC and got quarrantined @ home.
> took part in Nike Human Race 10km.
November
> got into Spore Flyer for the very first time!
> attended Mr Ben Yeong & Ms Bel Quek Church Wedding.
December
> took part in my very first Standard Chartered Marathon 42.195km.
> went for ward chalet.
> participated in SNCO Camp @ NHQ.
> celebrated XMAS with pri sch clique & evelyn.
> Zone retreat on 26th to 27th.
> celebrated my 20th @ chalet.
> had ward post Xmas party.
> countdown to 2010 @ MARINA with the awesome fireworks!

hit the BIG 2 this year. sheesh, feels so damn old please. this entire year will be full of 21st invites. already got a few inivites for 21st. 11 more mths for me to decide how i shld celebrate mine.

am thankful for those who stood by me when im in the darkest moments. when i needed shoulders to cry on, you know who you are. without the encouragements, the supports, i wouldnt have learn how to be strong. have been drinking in the last year to numb myself whenever things happens, no good i know. shall cut down on these rubbish this year, hopefuly.

Year 2010 will be a GOOD YEAR. i know it will :D

Last day of Yr 2009

caught this movie on 31st december!

so nice and exciting. cant wait for the part 2 !!

Marina was so damn crowded, with all the people loitering around waiting to see the fireworks. speaking of fireworks, it was fantastic. the 8 mins of wowness and well, too fab to be put into words. me likes :D

headed home at 4am+, slept for an hr and head out to work. was stoning for the entire day at work. oh well, what to do? haha.

Post Xmas Party

ward 48 post XMAS party on 30th dec.

all the sisters and "brothers" came down to makan. even the drs also enjoyed it :D happening day but im on afternoon shift. have to keep going in and out of the pantry to makan and back to ward to do my work.



the gifts exchange part was noisy! everyone was so excited to unwrap the gifts and just threw the wrapping papers on the floor. for a minute, the place looks like some rubbish dump la. got this adidas perfume set for the gift exchange :D



the reason why i love my ward :D

doubted

wheeee ! met up with meizhu for dinner :D had our gifts exchanged. hope you liked it babe :D



dinner was at NYDC, nice food, nice atmosphere, lovely company :D

meet up soon again for our shopping trip alright? :D

Denial

celebrated my 20th with my 3 ladies :D



ate MA LA STEAMBOAT. lots of catching up done:D thanks for the birthday present :D

caught Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. super cute and nice. LOVE THEODORE :D

cant believe i hit the big 2 already.

HAPPY 20TH TO ME :D

Zone 8 Retreat on 26th to 27th Dec @ Coasta Sands Resort





to summarize : bbq, talk cock sing song, celebration of me and zheng yee's birthday, xmas gift exchange, alcohol drinking, circle of death.



spent my 20th with this bunch of happening people :D got whacked by them when the clock strikes 12 midnight. you know who you are huh. haha. played somes games, got real high, and you know how it is when it comes to drinking, oh well..





next day was spent slacking in the chalet while the rest went WWW. dinner at Just Acia with them and once again, thanks all for the LOUD birthday song sang ah :D

and there's like LOTS OF UNGLAM PICTURES AND VIDEOS posted up on facebook =.=

and not forgetting those that wished me through sms, calls, facebook, thankyou :D even though there's some that i didnt expect them to remember. LOVEYOU ALL :D

MERRY XMAS

XMAS was AWESOME for me. had a XMAS picnic at Marina Barrage :D thanks to them i walked all the way into the barrage with my eyes blindfolded by a cartoon mask. hilarious but it was fun :D



10 years of friendships and more to come ! :D



my first logcake this year! :D






head over to Orchard for Xmas dinner with Evelyn. finally get to meet up with her after donkey years.



love the ice cream :D and of course, the company :D