and now you know

this entire week was damn hectic and rush for me. got to do so many stuffs in a short period of time. and the worst thing is, trouble found its way to me and damn, its fucking ridiculous and i got fucking mad at that person! had to stay till like 11pm + on a pm shift to settle the problem and got nagged by sister the next day and the next next day. just cos my junior made the mistake and i was the overall in charge, i had to take the scoldings from the relatives.

forget it. has been damn suay since the start of the year. all the bad stuffs came and not a single good thing happen. finally had the time to go guanyin temple and pray for this year. and thanks CHUANG XUESHEN :))

head over to kaiting's house on the 14th day of CNY which was yesterday! :)) finally had the time to meet up and updates on each other lives. but the journey from simei to yew tee is damn far please.



and today, the last day of CNY, was supposed to go uncle's house for visiting but i had to settle my overseas trip stuffs so didnt went. but red packets still find their way to my pockets :))

off to Phuket from 1st to 4th March! cant wait and i still haven started packing my lugguage yet! the room is in a mess and i think its gonna be worse when im back.  on pm shift for 5th march, gonna be damn tired then.

i acted like i didnt bother about it, but really, i think about it all the time. the one that i'll miss.

again and again

Saturday was a day full of events for me. and was feeling super cui the entire day.

reached home from night shift at 9am. slept for 1 hr and head down to eastview for competition training. back home @ 2pm, nap for 1 hr then went out for house visiting at Mrs Cho's. all the way till 8pm back home to change and then to work at 9pm.

the entire night was totally cui for me. tried damn damn damn hard to stay awake. plan failed and i just fell asleep on the front counter @ arnd 4am + thankgod i woke up just when the unit sister walked into the ward.

@ Mrs Cho's House



all gamblers. blackjack.



















mad happy when the ward clock hits 8am on sunday morning. really, i was practically rushing home just to SLEEP.

why does ppl likes to call me when im sleeping? urghh !!!

you know the feeling i get when people mention about you?

look into your eyes

caught the movie "The Wolfman" yesterday. thought that its gonna be a great movie but it turns out to be average only. okay the sound effects are scary and im sitting at the side and that makes it more scary. LOL! reached home at 2am and only managed to get to sleep at 3am cos of the back pain :((

and am working night shift tonight.
pray hard that tonight's gonna be a good good night.

off to bed for now.
and seriously the back pain is getting worse :((

i looked into your eyes, but i didnt get the answer that i wanted.

and it all begins

first day of CNY, head over to my grandmother's hse @ Marine Parade for dinner. no pictures taken cos everybody was busy with their own stuffs. haha. missed her cooking. i think its been almost 1 yr since i last saw her, my bad :((



second day of CNY was spent going round the EAST side of Singapore for visitng.
grandma's hse (tamp) > uncle's hse (kembangan) > aunt's hse (pasir ris) > grandmother's hse (marine parade)
my leg muscles was aching from all the walking!



caught the movie @ 11.50pm at Tampines Mall. total madness, cant believe the crowd outside the cinema. got the second front row seats = aching necks :(( ended movie at 2am + and concuss on the bed at 4am.

overslept for morning shift and rushed like crazy woman. was stoning in the ward for the entire day. thankgod its public holiday, completed my stuffs very early and stoned.

head over to kenneth's house in the evening for visitng and 3hrs + of mahjong session. LOVES. and i won $$ :)) more more more mahjong sessions please. and im so so so sorry for stepping onto kenken's paws. really, i didnt know he was behind me :((









cafe cartel for dinner with the usuals. was starving since morning, didnt had lunch though :(( as usual, we gossiped and gossiped :))

going to work yesterday was a bad bad choice. its damn chaotic in the hospital. so many admissions and the A&E was overcrowded. so much things to settle and everythings was so damn messy. plus drs are all being so fucked up, like seriously i wish i can give them a slap on the face. asshole.

i think i miss you.

if and only there's if

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL ^^

went shopping this week and went i got home i realised all the clothes that i bought were all BLUE in colour! dark / light / navy ! :))

lets just say that this entire week was a damn physically and mentally drained week. got an upside down roster. pm am pm am pm am for the entire week. damn lack of sleep i swear. had a hard time draggging myself out of bed and overslept for a few days. like total madness.

okay, i just remembered that mummy told me not to swear vulgarities on first day of CNY.

just yesterday work was enough to make our body muscles ache.
total ward discharges 15 patients in a day.
and everybody was rushing us cause they wanted to be home in time for reunion dinner.

was trying damn damn hard to stay awake last night. kept nodding off and i cant go to bed. was fighting the sleep monster all the way.

the happiest part was, i received my first red packet yesterday night. HAPPY ^^

alright, off to get prepared and head off to visiting at my grandmother's house! LOVES !! :D
cant wait for MAHJONG & ANGBAOS !!

* urgh, the dark eye bags :((

all lies

had Corps Cohesion at Swensons last week. turnout was good. spent a good total amount of $8**.** over there. nevertheless, i guess all enjoyed themselves ya? :D

just to upload a few pictures over here. the rest are uploaded @ facebook.













and so we roamed around Tamp1 > TM > Century Square > Starbucks and finally to Cafe Cartel. stayed there till around 12am and home sweet home.

okay the bus ride home was scary okay. WTH. i ran all the way home :((

work these days are real hectic.
everyday CPR and ICU.
and the number of staffs working each day is pathetic please.

i cant wait for CNY.
MAHJONG AND ANGBAOS AND GOODIES AND YUMMY REUNION DINNER :))
but the lousy thing is i got to work. SIGH.

okay, gonna go out to Bugis for some shopping! LOVES :))

things in life doesnt always end up the way you expect it to be. You caould plan your outline in life, but it doesnt always work out that way. There's a purpose for everything in your life that happens. You learn from it or you dont. You teach others as well as they taught you. Everyone in life plays a role in your life and you play a role in theirs.

words that you cant say

did i mention how much i love this dog? kenken! :D

so love yesterday night. sang from 7pm to 2am @ Ehub Kbox at only $8 PER PAX!! damn cheap right? and its super worth it. the total bill was only $40 for 5 and its 6 hrs of singing :D and we sang "NOBODY" with kenneth dancing to the steps. NICE :)) all the videos are with ah sim :))





almost K.O when singing halfway. damn tired and only like slept for 4 hrs that day. ahhh, now i cant wait to club next next wednesday :))

and thanks to theresa's dad for sending us home after that! :)) reached home bathe and concuss at 3.30am.

woke up and my throat feels a lil sore.
honey drink for my throat and it feels damn shiok :))

Corps Cohesion @ Swensons tomorrow !! :))

one of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you cant utter.

is that right

second night shift was even more tiring. had to send one patient down to ICU, many stuffs to follow up and the patients seems to be even more energetic at night. kept on talking and shouting non stop. then call bells ringing every 5 minutes, like so urghhh!

hunger pangs at night.
ordered SPIZE from Simpang Bedok.
finally delivered to us at 4am in the morning.
Roti John + Cheese Fries + Ice Lemon Tea + Chicken Wings.
just simply too nice for words. was already starving. stomach kept grumbling :((

scare ourselves when the lights suddenly went off at 2am.

sigh, once again, the pain at my back is terrible :((

just had a 4 hrs of nap and am up watching "Hi My Sweetheart". super nice the show :))

gonna go out to meet kenken and then to EHUB for K-singing session ! :D

anyone who falls in love is searching for the missing pieces of themselves. its like stepping back inside a room you have fond memories of, one you havent see in a long time.

i think; i thought

YAY, one night shift down :))  like oh my god so happy can. tonight is the second night shift. yesterday night was like damn busy with all the patients being so ill and have to constantly check on them. think yesterday was an "auspicious" day uh. admitted 6 patients in the night and all of them came in for drug overdose / suicidal =.- 3 was accompanied by police. and the age range from 18 to 68 =.-

my back pain is killing me :((

ordered MAC in the night to munch on.
the food in the hospital is way too pathetic.
filet-o-fish + mac wings + mac nuggets + ice lemon tea + twister fries @ 3am :))
very fattening but oh who cares as long as my stomach is satisfied :D

need to go to back to bed again.
3hrs more for me to have a nap before work :((

too many times we put our hearts on the line, hoping that this time, things are going to be different. but too many times we play the waiting game because we are too afraid of making decisons.

somewhere; somehow

attended Senior NCO Passing Out Parade last saturday @ PeiCai Secondary. from 10am to 8pm.





cam-whoring > gossiping > MacDonald's > chicken rice > ceromony > parade > buffet dinner > corps photo + platoon photo > back to eastview :D

image heavy, so the rest of the photos are on facebook!













Corps Photo (Formal)



Corps Photo (Informal)



My dearest Bravo Platoon :D



ended the day with a meeting at the EV coffeshop till arnd 11.30pm.

am so damn sleepy and tired
tonight's gonna be the first night shift.
crossed fingers and pray very hard that everything's gonna be smooth.

my throat feels sore and pain.
but i wanna eat lots of chocolates right now.

off to dreamland for a nap before heading out to work later on.

seeing him was like hearing an old song playing on the radio - it brings back so many feelings and memories that i cant tune out.