well, first thing first, I WANNA WATCH STEP UP 2 !!!!!!!


okays, the best things bout holidays ::
^^ sleeping @ late hrs & waking up @ wadever time u like (:
^^ no worries bout projects, presentations & stuff like that (:
^^ no need to STUDY !! (:
^^ going out till wee hrs everyday is not a problem (:


gosh, my friends are still in vietnam. RARRR. but they are gonna be back on this friday =D


left with this & next week of holidays. then school gonna start & we'll be in YEAR 3. man.. im so not prepared for YEAR 3.

with all the FYP & PRCP & EXAMS & MORE PROJECTS & TIGHT SCHEDULES, it really will kill us man.. RARR!!!!


school aside, ENJOY FIRST =D

回忆过去 痛苦的相思忘不了

为何你还来 搏动我心跳

Counting Day.

overslept a lil but i wasnt the latest. haha. OPPS !! head down to NHQ. the hall was already filled with lots of ppl. waited for the tins to be send up the hall & started our counting. & after all the counting & waiting, left NHQ @ 2 plus.


lunch-ed @ army market there. despite eating $4 worth of prawn noodles, 2 tang yuan, cheese fries, im still damn hungry. =_= thats why i just ate like 2 bowls of rice, chicken & duck & prawns & 2 bowls of soup for dinner @ home. but still, im very hungry. =_= makes no sense lor.


gahh. my hands smells of money. =_= im broke now. only left with few cents with me. still haven got allowance for next mth. plus this month i overspent alot also.


feeling very warm despite the fan blowing @ me. something must be wrong can.


feeling very SLEEPY yet at the same time wanna play mahjong. LOL.


seriously, you shld go read -- blog,
then you'll know the whole story.
no point me being the bad person over here.

SCARS makes us stronger

SJAB Flag Day.

sheesh. that Kenneth Chia Jin Long is late in the morning. made us have to cabbed down to school in a rush. & of cos we were late, but not the latest =.=


was stationed at tamp 201. the crowd was not bad in morning but there were other corps there too. & damn, it was freaking sunny todae, was under the sun for so long, confirm sunburn. my face is feeling kinda hot now. =.= lunch-ed , then continue to do awhile more & then bus-ed back to EV.


settled everything & finally, im done with the 5 years service medal thingy. LIKE FINALLY !!!


had first aid revison with the cadets to prepare for next week BFA re-exam. slacked @ coffeeshop & back home @ 6.45pm.


damn. my muscles are kinda strained now. & im VERY SLEEPY right now.


ignoring you doesnt makes me feel better
but i just dun feel like talking to you, looking @ you.
it'll be just like in the past
a temporary period for me to get over it
& we'll see how things goes from there.

还记得吗?

went down to EV for some admin stuffs. & saw the rehearsal for the Speech Day Parade =_= dinner-ed @ S11 & home sweet home.


SJ Flag Day tmr. gotta reach school by 0630. lets hope i wun overslept. HAH.


爱不到我最想要爱的人
他心里每一寸都属于另一个人
我爱的人已有了爱人
从他的眼神说明了我不可能
its all over.
BYE.
ignoring you seems to be the best way.

just leave me alone

2 years ago, when it started
i guess..

im trying to escape from it,
& well, things turned out pretty fine after that.

got busy & well.. it moved on..

things been going rather smooth till recently,
when i so stupidly go ask that qns,
& so insisted on knowing the ans

& by knowing the ans,
dun really do me any good,
instead it makes its worse


i really dunnoe wad to do now.
having a memory loss seems to be a good idea.

ytd evening went to meet pt & jianwen to go IKEA shopping !! LOL. went around to look for frames & decided on the colour ; Sliver (: back home @ 11.15pm.


dunnoe why these days i keep getting headaches. damn lo. cant be cos of lack of sleep. HAHA. & im not gonna touch panadols. the last time i took was in comp camp & cos the pain was unbearable already.


alright, im going out to meet yq & siauling (:


it all started again when i asked the qns.
i shldnt have asked.
then i woundnt have known.
its turning out to be complicating...

time has a habit of slipping away

You know you're a NURSE if...


1. Discussing bodily fluids over a gourmet meal seems perfectly normal to you.
2. Your bladder can expand to accommodate 30L of fluid.
3. Your sense of humour gets more warped each year.
4. You have seen more penises than a prostitute. [HAH]
5. You find yourself checking out the veins of customers whilst waiting in queues.
6. You can identify a problem by the odour of body fluids.
7. Your finger has gone places most people would think impossible.
8. You live by the motto: To be right is only half the battle, to convince the doctor is more difficult. [ i totally agree ]
9. You believe that unspeakable evils will befall you if the following words are uttered: "It's unusually quiet around here today". [ it's always very true ]
10. You believe that caffeine should be available in IV form. [ it'll helps when you're on morning/night shift ]

Distant Memories

GREAT day out to Orchard (:

caught The Spiderwick Chronicles @ Cine, 1.30pm

quite a nice show. storyline is also not too bad (:

then caught The Leap Years @ Cine, 5pm.

wanted to watch this show for quite some time le, but din have time to watch it. & i finally watched it todae (: very touching, how 2 people can actually wait for each other for so long...

gotta be budget so lunched & dinnered @ KFC & LJS =)

& it was raining quite heavily @ Orchard. thus we were stuck in Cineleisure for quite some time.

walked over to Far East. & got drenched a little due to the quite-heavy drizzle. LOL.


home sweet home @ 10pm. which is like quite early, but all the shopping centres have started to close shop already. SIAN.

- its not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves -

damn. out of sudden this sickening headache pop out of nowhere.

caused me to be damn moody.

maybe i shld continue to sleep longer...

time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.
Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.
Most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.
They somehow already know what you truly want to become.
Everything else is secondary.

Extracted from http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPL_NjBjUWE


[edited]

my left eye is so itchy & painful & red now. please dun let it be an eye infection. i'm so afraid of swollen eyes already.


往事从提是折磨

freaking tired man. hp alarm din manage to wake me up @ 6.30am. end up no morning call also. & i woke up @ 7am.

actually intended to sort out stuffs for CMC meeting, thats why i wanna wake up @ 6.30am. but then waking up @ 7am left me with not much time to do my stuffs also.

ended up i cabbed to school cos i noe i'll be late if i continue to wait for bus =.= cos the bus is so damn slow, waited for like 15 mins & no bus in sight.


cmc meeting started @ 9am & ended arnd 12.45pm. lunched @ coffeeshop & home sweet home @ arnd 3.30pm.


maybe i shld go & sleep now. like finally im @ home at this hour, shld take the time to go & replenish my precious SLEEP. din manage to get much sleep for the entire week can.


what's broken cannot be mend.
what's done cannot be undone.
what's lost cannot be replaced.
it's always too late when we realize that.

这已经说明了一切

alright. was out with yq they all from afternoon all the way till midnight. LOL. went tamp starbucks first & then head off to Marina Square.

wanted to catch a movie but the queue was damn long so changed to dinner at Yuki Yaki. damn. the food there is like so little & not very nice can.


then went off to Miss U cafe for drinking. then to bark's cafe. then to changi village for supper with jianwen they all. shagged out. was back home at 0030hrs.


& now im staring at this screen with a damn freaking painful headache.


what to do...

exact posting time : 0300hrs.

我爱的人不是我的爱人

seems like almost everyday im out till very late =.=

wednesday, 19th March

went to 201 Mac to discuss some stuffs with yq. then left to white sands to meet friends. & then went to have supper at bedok 85 with yq they all. back home @ 1 plus.

today

was quite busy the entire day. LOL. woke up at 12 plus. went to bank. back home & went out to buy things for my mama. then went back home again & then out to bugis. =_=

finally i changed my phone !!! wahaha. that N73 is serious lagged. can lag for 5 to 6 mins when sending msg. then phone will auto on / off by itself, even in the middle of a call or sms.

my new phone (:

& ya, i changed my number too (:

wahaha. so happie can. LOL. just reached back home like at 2.45am. LOL. & the time now is like 4.50am. shall go sleep now. freaking tired can. & i got to wake up like at 12.45pm in the afternoon =_= so early.

once again, things became complicated,

maybe i shldnt know too much.

exact posting time : 4.59am.

Do you feel the same

like oh-so-great, that i devoted my entire afternoon to type out the meeting minutes for the Corps OIC meeting. & finally, its done within a day.


just now went out to have supper with yq, pt & william. first to tamp 201 then to bedok. & back home @ 2.35am.


it seems like i have been going out for supper for consecutive days. & i realise, i have been seeing the same people for like almost everyday since the night we go kbox.


alright, im off to bed.


exact posting time : 0335hrs.

its too contradicting

woke up @ 12 plus todae. was totally shagged out for the past weeks.


zone meeting @ NHQ. minutes was taken by me, like so =.= everything ended arnd 10.40pm.


then went down to Tamp interchange Mac for supper with yq, daryl, bh, william, jianwen. slacked there till like 2.30am then home sweet home.


im damn tired already. BYE.


exact posting time : 0315hrs.

words can be a very strong weapon

had FA/HN Competition which was held @ DHS.


the first morning call din manage to wake me up. but the second call did. & i rushed like mad, ironing my uniform, searching for the assessories & packing my bag. & luckily, i managed to reach eastview on time (:

but had a very bad headache. must be cos of the drinking ytd.


went down to DHS. then some cork ups. but was solved. the entire day was spent walking arnd, chopping certs & blah...


well, results were out. & well, can see lots of efforts are put in by them but.. congrats to all.


reached back eastview arnd 8.35pm. some talks, changed down & sat @ the coffee shop. reached home arnd 12 plus.

was totally shagged already.

exact posting time : 0200hrs.

things happen for a reason

damn freaking tired can.

back home @ 2.30am after supper last night.


went down to eastview for preparation for comp. had uniform inspection, ironing of uniform, polishing of boots & blah...

lunch & slacked @ the coffee shop till 5pm. rushed home, prepared & went out to orchard to meet friends for belated birthday celebration. dinner-ed @ the orchard kopitiam then went to party world to sing. sing sang sung till 12.30am.

it was freaking cold inside can. they ordered martell. & of cos not to spoil the mood, i drank 2 cups. of which each cup is half martell & a lil green tea only. was feeling damn shag already.


cabbed home with 2 other friends which they alight first, left me in the cab alone. LOL. the others were drunk but im not. wahahha. those who are drunk will say that they are not =.=

reached home @ 0145. & SLEEP. the following day still got to wake up EARLY can.


exact posting time : 0230am

LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENTS !!!


like finally, its ALL OVER (:

obstestric posting is definitely FUN cos of those cute babies that always make my days. feeding , bathing, burping, playing with them can really relieve stress (:


& that will end the 3 weeks of attachments.


1 month to fully enjoy myself before the start of the hectic YEAR 3. seriously, im not prepared for YEAR 3 lah. its gonna be full of projects, attachments, PRCP.


well, school aside, PLAY FIRST =D


alright, im going out for supper with pt, alvin,william,jianwen&james.

a fullstop.

this morning, i woke up feeling very blur, picked up my phone & saw 6 new messages. the first message that i clicked reads : '' your exam results are ... '' wahh, quickly scan through & i PASSED ALL MY MODULES =D


Nursing Science 2D (HS 2037) -- B
Research Methods (HS 2056) -- C
Clinical Lab 2B (HS 2057) -- B+
Biological Science 2B -- D+
Nursing Science 2A (HS 2117) -- C+
Behavioural Science 2B (HS 2119) -- C
Clinical Education -- C+


this time round only one D. & that is cos i din study for it. well, next sem, NO "D". haha. pretty satisfied with my results cos din really have much time to study for all the modules ya (:


went down for self train in the morning. was still pretty tired can. then left @ arnd 12.15pm for attachment. thankfully im being posted to the nursery again. was feeling damn sleepy throughout the entire shift & the coldness in the ward + the heavy rain din help much.


tmr is another long long day again. & its the LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT can. im so happie (:

hallucinations or illusions?

it rains everyday.
& its this very cold everyday.
just like how my mood is.


i think im better this morning during work. i reached on time. i din fell asleep. i did everything sui sui. not like the day before, like half-dead like that.

everybody was like asking " xingjuan, did u sleep last night ", " can make it anot todae '' sian-ed lo. even some staff nurses are asking. wth can.

at least todae im in the nursery. feeding the babies, changing diapers, playing with them keeps me busy & not thinking bout anything else. the entire day of of newborn babies crying & screaming away in the room makes me only concentrate on them.


the ward is damn cold can. it think the hosp got alot of money to spare, thats why they full blast the aircon 24/7.

i have enough of coldness already.
during night in camp is also damn cold.
now attachment also damn f* cold.
weather also damn cold.


thankfully i have 2 more days to go. 2 more afternoon shift & i can say BYE BYE to attachment &
HELLO to holidays.

RESULTS IS GOING TO BE OUT AT 12 MIDNIGHT *IM DAMN NERVOUS*

i keep thinking,
did those things really happen.
cant it be confirmed?

i feel like screaming & crying, can i ?

after so long, finally im back to blog. & the damn wireless modem died on me, so i have to restort to using some ahem ways to get it work (: alright, lets blog bout wad happened recently (:


last friday, 7 March was the last day of attachment @ IMH. had a mini party for the patients over there & i can see that they really enjoyed themseleves la. & some patients are just so cute in the way they speak though its not fantastic english. LOL.

then went kbox @ Cine at night. all 6 of us were crazy ppl, going kbox on the eve of comp camp. pt, yq, xj, alvin, daryl, william bill amounts to a whooping $300 ++++ thats when my $$ flew away. ended the k singing session @ 4am plus. then went here & there to get barangbarang & then back to coffee shop for breakfast & meeting.


4 days 3 nights Comp Camp started on Sat, 8th March. had the usual preparation, settling down, cases & blahh.. 2hrs of sleep on that night. & the conference room is freaking cold @ night luh.

same routine for sunday too. slept for say 2 hrs too before booking out & going for attachment @ KKH. sad to say that im late on the FIRST DAY OF ATTACHMENT luh.

then went back to camp after im back from attachment. TIRED LEH. chiong the whole day & din even sleep & sir william send me back home @ 5am plus. prepared everything & i realised that im LATE FOR ATTACHMENT AGAIN. wad an ass la.

guess todae is like the worse day in the ward. totally stoned out the whole day. nearly spilled all the meds when serving it. doing wrong things. saying the wrong things. keep banging into ppl. haiya, just lots of stuffs being DONE WRONG LA. &#*&$


then entire camp makes me so shagged plus going to attachment during camp is a torture makes everything worse.


lotsa stuffs happened during the camp.
i dunnoe wad to comment on it.
sometimes, im just speechless,
& oh well ......


somethings cant be undone.
im rather surprised.
i wanna noe the reason.
but im still love the feeling & the way it happened (:


im damn tired now. shall get my ass to bed. i dun wanna stone during tmr's morning shift. & i realised, ive got panda eyes already :(


comp camp is just 5 days away, remember,
WINNERS MAKE IT HAPPEN, LOSERS LET IT HAPPEN

rainy & cold day.


still cracking my brain over that casestudy. somehow, i just cant seems to finish it. ARGH !!!!!!


my head is spinning like crazy.
having a very bad headache.
sneezing & coughing like mad.
flu & sore throat makes everything worse.
food is tasteless to me.

im feeling terrible :(

comp training todae. well, as usual till 4 plus. had meeting after that. reached home near 7pm.


& this forgetful person forgot to take his things.


have been sneezing & coughing the entire day. which made my voice changed too. like =.=


din sleep ytd night. just so happen that always din sleep on friday night then next day got to go for training =.=

im feeling so sick :(