mind games

Bak ku tehhh @ Rohor.

definitely will go back there for it again. its simply too nice to be put into words :)



Pluck @ Haji Lane

the ice cream there is awesome, really.
really like the lychee martini and double chocolate favour!

25TH IS THE BEST DAY EVER IN JUNE !
shopped around bugis area and spent like alot alot :(

but then again, i'll need to save and save and save. too many bills to clear :(

i dont understand.
i seriously dont.
why are you always playing mind games with me?

through it all

met up with my fav primary school friends! :)



had our dinner @ Raindrops Cafe @ Orchard Scape.





nice environment, excellent service & awesome food. definitely 5 thumbs up :) worth going back there again for another round. this cafe is open and manage by 5 university students, and they themselves are the ones thats serving the customers. i like their friendly smiles *winks :)



hop over and head down to Rochor Beancurd. i like the tau huayyyyyyy to the max please. and the youtiao and soyamilk and egg tarts tooo! :)

cabbed home instead, was tooo tired but all enjoyed! :)

love drunk

been long since i played mahjong. fingers itching for it.

and we played for 9hrs of overnight mahjong. its either the luck or my seat is not a fengshui good seat, i kept feeding ppl tiles and ... :( but the good thing is overall i only lost $10!

thankgod i didnt bet on Germany to win last night,  if not, there goes my money again.

work has been real tiring these days. with the always overflowing number of patients and the bed tightness situation in the hospital, we had to slog damn hard everyday. and its wasnt always that easy to work on mondays and tuesday. terribly busy :(

seriously, im darn broke right now. just 6 more days to go.

reminiscing

the day we travelled from Bishan to ToaPayoh to Novena.

first time taking circle line - i must say that its still a lil bit confusing for me. why didnt they open circle line when im still studying at NYP 2 years ago? only took us 30mins to reach there.

had to specifically head down to J8 Best Denki to collect my warranty card -.-



a sudden craving for sashimi and off we went to Toa Payoh Entertainment Centre for Sakae Sushi buffet dinner :)

love sashimi.

and i love the company too :)

crossroads

yesterday was on a mad shopping craze!



PC Show @ Suntec was damn crowded. but i had eyes only for this :))



my new found love :)

settled dinner @ Ding Tai Feng



xiaolongbaos are the best. i ate 10 of them :)

am on shopping ban from now on. need to refrain myself from shopping strictly!

in loving memory

28th May 2010, 6.15pm.
the day and time my grandma departed from this world.

everything was too sudden for me. a call from mummy at 6.28pm totally shocked me. it happened too quickly cos she doesnt have any history of heart problems. CPR and AED shock didnt managed to revive her. totally broke down at the A&E.

post mortem the next day at SGH shows the cause of death was the blockage of artery in the heart.

the last time i saw grandma was on her 88th birthday on 10th April. she was still healthy looking and smiling from time to time. that day, she told me that i was too thin and i had to eat more. that was the last sentence said from her to me.

3 days of wake under her blk at marine cresent. thanks to those who dropped by and messaged, deeply appreciated.

this morning, we sent her last journey at Mandai Crematorium Hall with all her children, grandchildren and relatives.

rest in peace grandma, you are deeply missed by us.

n.e.g.a.t.i.v.e

this entire week is like a roller coaster ride. up and down.

i thought everything seems to be on the track but then along the way, that one sentence, or rather a word makes it all crashed down. it wasnt who i though it was anymore. 

i dont know who to believe in anymore.

this week, when i heard someone mention about that incident, my heart started to beat very fast. i prayed very hard that it wasnt going to end up what i thought it might be. but yes, it was.  all i know was that my eyes were watery and the next moment, i walked out very fast. i couldnt let them all see.

and everything had to happen all at the same time and pull me down.

i felt so damn guilty. my bad. im lousy. im useless. im everything negative.

keep going

Passion Run 2010 @ East Coast Park



marathon event was held last saturday, 22nd May at ECP. 10km race started at 5.20pm. my back pain was killing me when i was jogging. had to stop alot of time and i even wanted to just sit down on the bench cos the pain was really too much. but im glad i didnt, managed to complete it in 1hr 15mins.



but the after effect was real bad. my back couldnt even be straighten properly :((



met the couple for the race. * credits to yanteen for the pictures!



this year's medal seems to be a lil bigger than last year.

my legs started to ache not on sunday but monday, 2 days after the race -.- thanks to those who laugh at the way i walked. but my colleagues/friends were nice enough to help me to pick up stuffs on the floor cos i couldnt really bend down, walked the extra distance to get me stuffs cos i walked too slow -.-

do you know how i felt when you said those stuffs yesterday?
NO. i dont think you know.

always here

Qinke's birthday dinner @ Thai Restaurant at Shaw Tower. (1st one from the right)

thereafter to Ah Chew Desserts for Mango Sago!

nights out with my girls. love how we laughed as if the entire place only belongs to us.


im still not over it yet.

demoralised

it was my passion and now it's still is.
but when all the damn shits start happening to you all at the same time, will it still be my passion?
confidence level dropped to negative %

why is all these things happening?
am i not good enough? am i not putting in enough effort?
am i not being hardworking enough? am i not being responsible enough?

i was on the verge of breaking down at work.
i nearly cried when everything came crashing down on me.
no words can be used to describe how i felt at that moment.
when people starts to question, when they kept asking questions, my mind blanked.

im so disappointed in myself.


define: a good nurse.

it shldnt be like this

IP Man 2 last week.

cant remember which day it is that i watched it. i got short term memory you see. but the movie was way awesome even though we sat at the front row! love how the movie portrays the chinese traditional kungfu and that it shldnt be despise by the others.

and then it was cafe cartel with nice chocolate banana cake :)

waited for NR7 from town for 40mins just cos i wanted to save on the midnight cab fare. and i looked kinda dumb sitting at the bus stop waiting for the bus and at the same time trying not to fall asleep.

think last week was work and work only. occupancy rate for these few days are damn high. can hit 104/105%. meaning to say the entire hospital has no more available beds but there are still 30/40 over patients waiting at the A&E for beds. very bad.

totally drained.

drink drank drunk

wednesday night = ladies night

ladies night = long queue + booze & dancing the night away.

the mood for yesterday night was pretty bad though. had no mood and maybe thats why i kept on drinking. though the liquor tasted horrible but that was what that could keep my thoughts away for a moment.

got myself home at wee hours. woke up with bruises at my knee and my arms sore.

thats the after effect.

i dont care what others say. some may think that a girl shldnt get herself drunk in the middle of then night and thats not proper. but if i say im okay, i mean it.

drink. drank. drunk.

the bonds

celebrated Sheena's 22nd at Suntec KushinBo. dinner was awesome! the snow crabs legs was finger licking :) present from us to her was pull & bear jacket.



love how we talked about everything from work to friends to relationships :)

next up will be Esther's 21st :)

danced the night away

last friday was loved :))





spent the evening at ION Orchard. had dinner at this Jap Restaurant. the creamy pizza tasted good! saw many familiar faces at town. roamed around and then cabbed down to ZOUK.











was abit early so there wasnt queue at all! but there was an event at ZOUK. lotsa people and the crowd is huge! decided to booze abit before going in. music at Phuture that night was terrible horrible. totally off the mood. vodka lime tasted yucky that night too. rahhh. lychee martini is so much better. nevertheless i still enjoyed the company of my girls :))

attention seeking

once again, its raining now now now. for the past few days, it always rain at this time of the day and makes it a gloomy evening with dark skies and emo nemo feelings.

and i didnt manage to fall asleep during my afternoon nap yesterday which resulted in being me damn damn sleepy at the wee morning. was tossing and turning in bed, those scenes just flashed through no matter how hard i tried to put it out of my head.

was damn hungry at 3.30am.
walked down to 7-11 ; sick & tired of the food there.
decided for mac delivery at 3.50am.
BIG BREAKFAST arrived at 4.15am.
gobbled down the food within 15minutes but hunger wasnt satisfied.

out to do my usual night routine at 5am - bathing all the grannies. its either we are left with no more strength towards the end or we are damn tired or our movements are just damn slow but we finished off quite late. my back hurts damn badly :((

& i saw Walter! (my OTC'06 hotel grp mate) he's posted to my ward now. should be medical yr 2 student i think.

left ward late and home at 9.30am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

morning shift tomorrow! but im not complaining. i wont complain and i wont grumble. oh maybe just a lil cos i still want sleep. but cause cause cause tomorrow we'll be partying away at zouk later on in the night with my favourite girls i cant wait ! :)) - and this is how we destress.

hot cold hot cold - if it was you, would you like it?

you walked away

its still raining donkeys now. such a cooling weather to sleep and not get up for work. so please dont rain when im going to work at night and makes me sleepy! and yes, tonight me is on night shift again. though i just ended my night shift on monday. ohkay, im not complaining, more nights = more money = taiwan! :))

& i just got to know that 3 new graduates nurses are posted to my ward! tonight gonna go back ward intranet system and see the postings! :))

was pretty irritated on some issues.
but well, i cant be bothered about it already.
just go along with whatever it's said.
no point commenting further on it.

few months have passed. i wonder how is everything. how to continue from here. how do we rewind everything back again?

shall go back to bed for a short nap again. hopefully i'll be able to fall asleep.

together as one

Standard 4; Bravo '07 Passing Out Parade

and so it was the Standard 4's big day on saturday. starting with promotion parade in the morning. congrats to all who have been promoted :))



later on in the morning was the commencement of the parade. standing up on the podium, watching them doing the parade, i felt proud for them though i only became their Platoon Commander together with YongQing when they are in sec 2. but nevertheless, they did a great job for the POP :))





Standard 4; Bravo '07







Standard 3; Alpha '08



Standard 2; Delta '09



Standard 1; Charlie '10



TIC, Officers & Senior NCOs



EVSS Corps Photos 2010 - missing alvin & yangzhen & bh & jas.



head out to Seoul Garden next for their POP dinner :))



decided on singing and we headed to chai chee for 3 hrs of singing session! and some of them actually sings quite well! :))





all the best to you guys.
passing out doesnt means an end but rather a start of a new begining.
see you guys at the end of nov/dec.
study hard :))

you will never know

caught this cute movie with xueshen on thursday!

at first i thought it was just another cartoon movie but i was wrong! "How to train your dragon" is really damn nice. toothless is so cuteeeeeee! okay i sound like some small kid here. movie is 5 thumbs up :))

Soup Spoon for dinner the next day with jasmine!
me loves the soup, and the bread toooooooooooo! :))



off to Cineleisure for another movie!
YAY, i love meeting up with my primary school friends! :))
caught the "My rainy days" - A japanese movie!
overall was still alright, wont recommend to watch unless you're really bored.
but but, this movie still made me teared in the middle of the show. the scenes are like, so similar, so familar.

was deciding where to hang out after that and we took NR7 home. on the journey back, decided to head home to sleep instead! everyone was tired! concuss on my bed at 2am!

one year

13th April - it marks the exact one year that i've been working; as a Staff Nurse.

this road definitely didnt start out smoothly. once after you graduate, you are thrown into an environment whereby you have to survive on your own. no more excuses like "sorry, im a student, im not sure how its done. " you are expected to deal with everything single problems that comes along the way.

and im glad to have a whole bunch of good colleagues that is always ever helpful.

this one year is neither short or long. had faced lots of challenging situations / arguements / unappreciative people but thats what makes one grow stronger. isnt it?

lots of time, people asked me how long am i gonna work in this line? am i gonna be a nurse forever? neither can i answer this question myself. but im sure, something will work out along the way :))

hush hush

9th April - friday night



head over to Bugis with the girls for korean steamboat in the evening. darren joined us later on! always passed by this place but never dropped in for a meal. this time round went in, the place was small but cosy ^^ lots of variety of food and it taste pretty good too :))



last minute decided to head over to The Cathay for a late night movie! bought tickets for the 11.35pm show!



slacked around for 1 hour and we camwhored! ^^

movie was hilarious. damn damn funny. the entire cinema was filled with laughter throughout the movie! :))

ended movie arnd 1.30pm and got a car ride home ^^

had only 2 hours of sleep before heading down to EastView for First Aid Examination.

10th April - Saturday

was the CPR examiner for straight 8 hrs. damn tiring please. and my back hurts damn badly after that :((

rushed home and out to grandma's house at marine parade for her 88th birthday celebration! ^^ pictures are with my cousin at the moment.

back home and realised im running a temperature. no wonder the entire day im feeling so damn sian. bad headache too :((

11th April - Sunday

work on sunday afternoon was quite okay. but me was not feeling too good. while serving meds to the patients, suddenly felt that the room was spinning and my head was feeling damn heavy, had to squat down immediately to prevent myself from fainting. yes its that bad. and i dont dare to walk cos everything was in a blur :((

RAHHHH.

we did try to have a conversation, didnt we?